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okay well so much has happened this weekend. i have finally realized how much i love carlos and how much i noe i cant live without him. so heres wat happened. saturday was Vice and i was supposed to see alex(( my old bf who i was still in love with)). but wen he gets there he's holding audreys hand and like i was like watever and i was just so happy to see him. well he tells me that i was beautiful and then we go and dance. yea i wasnt comfortable dancing wit him. i mean who wud be.. he was dancing like a wannabe BET fucked up bastard. yea it was embarrassing standing there watching him make a fool of himself. But i let it slide and then danced wit him for a while longer. then we were walking around and he grabbed my hand, and i was like okay he'z holding my hand. and then like he let go and now for all u ppl out there who noe me, u noe that wen i try to act serious but then start smilling, im so fucking around, but no, this son of a bitch didnt get that so now he thinks im materialistic and pmssy because of it. i was like watever. he says that stephanie lied to me but why shud i believe him. so heres wat happened. steph comes up to me and tells me he told her that he didnt like me anymore. which i realli didnt need to hear because like three days before Vice, he was all like omg sanaz i love u so much and i wud never hurt u and dudes go look at his LJ he was all like oh im taken and nobody's gonna take my baby's place...blah blah blah..prolly just tryin to get sex outta me and then dump me like all them other horny dicks out there. but yea..so i started crying cuz i mean it hurt and shit but that fucking fat ass((seriously))) went off and danced wit audrey. and i never had a problem wit audrey but after doin that, noing that i only went to vice to see alex and that i still cared for him makes her look like a low life fucking fat tramp... and thats like so fucking cheap. so i spend the entire nite crying and then erin tells me that i need to talk to alex. so i fucking did and he was all like we are gonna make this work, and im never gonna leave u and blah blah blah.. so i go dance wit him and he keeps fucking kissing my cheeks and stuff and then at the end of the song he kissed me and for that mother fucker out there, u fucking noe u did, emma and marty saw u, and so did steph and a buncha other pple. but here's the thing i didnt know..he kissed audrey b4 me and acted like there was nothin wrong. then in the car, he tried to kiss her again. so yesterday i told him that i didnt want to ever talk to him again. and u noe wat now..i want him and audrey to go out..i want that bitch to fall in love wit him, i want her to be all happpy happy about it, and i want him to run off after a while saying she's changed and he needs someone new...for all u pple out there who think u noe ALEX HERRERA, yall mother fuckers dont, he is the biggest dick ((not his actual one, its only 7 haha loser)) out there. he thinks that loving someone is a on and off switch and in reality, u cant do that..yea i sed i dont love him anymore, but thats not true, im getting over him..im trying to get over him...thats wats happening..and for audrey, yea bitch i hate u now..i dont care if all the fucking cunts out there havta say it wasnt ur fault, u stupid hoe new the situation and jumped rite in wit ur skirt rammed up over ur fucking head. so all the luck to u and that fucking dick alex...all in all u noe hez gonna do that same shit back to u...if he starts out doin that to his first gf...hez gonna end up doin it to the rest of them....