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so i've been telling everyone my days been ok... i dunno why cause i guess it wasn't actually ok. i've been so irritable all day. kinda almost angry. i dont know why. and then i have the worst conversation with cole and he hung up on me with out saying i love you or even saying good bye. that just pissed me off so much. theres no reason he should of done that... and i dunno he said sorry but it doesnt help. but yeah i dunno... guys just dont get it. i remember liz telling me this. she was having problems with mike and she said that all she wanted was for him to make her feel special. i never really thought about it then but its true. thats what every girl wants for a guy to make her feel special. i dunno its like i know cole loves me but he just doesnt make me feel loved. i mean when he was home it was amazing he was so sweet and well it was just amazing but when hes at college its just different. i feel like i dont hold any more importance to him than anyone else. like tonight he was like oh i have to go chill with my friends. it just bothers me cause he can chill with them whenever he wants they're always there at college. when im with my friends and he calls i still talk to him because he's more important to me than my friends. so i feel like when he says he cant talk cause hes with his friends its like saying im not more important. he makes me feel like calling me is a chore. like every day im so excited for when i just get to talk to him and i dont feel like he feels the same way. i dunno it just makes me feel like shit.