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xfaeriex

I'd really appreciate it if you'd SHUT THE FUCK UP

Mar 08, 2005 05:34

Seeing as I am the queen of randomly publicized posts, and this one is going to hit and miss with a few people, I figure it's time for yet another post that is meant for a few people that will never get read by anyone ( Read more... )

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bunnyagogo March 8 2005, 16:54:19 UTC

i never forgot you existed and it hurts that you think that. i'm sorry i didn't call you on your birthday, i didn't forget it. i've been so busy lately, and its not an excuse but it happened. i have always called you on your birthday. i'm sorry that our friendship is being reduced to this because i thought it was stronger than to have to be upset at each other when i don't call you on your birthday. i thought our friendship was more about being there for each other during hard times and fun times, which we have. you are still one of the people i love and the only one i talk to from elementary school. it hurts that you think i don't care. i'm sorry that you didn't get a call from me on your birthday but i hate that you will base our friendship on that. you know i love you and care about you as a sister.

xfaeriex March 8 2005, 19:26:53 UTC

I am not in any way, shape, or form basing our friendship on you remembering my birthday. I'm basing it on the fact that you don't talk to me anymore at all, I read your livejournal, and you are so much more content with keeping tabs on Kristin and Rebecca's lives, and any attempts for me to make mention of you go unnoticed ... well, until now, obviously. Not a single day goes by where I don't think of you and wonder how you REALLY are. You say things in your livejournal, but I wonder what the reality is. You used to tell me things you never told anyone else, and it hurts me to think that I don't even know if you still have all of your teeth, or even know how to smile anymore. I'm going through a lot right now, and I have a lot on my mind, and to continue worrying about whether or not people still know I'm alive isn't really at the top of my list of things to do. I still love you, and still want you in my life. I just don't know how to assess it right now, that's all.

bunnyagogo March 8 2005, 19:32:43 UTC

the reason i talk about kristen or rebecca more is because i still see them. they come home from time to time and i see them. i feel like i havne't seen you since like, jared i think which is ridiculous. i always think of you and stupid shit we did together, our friendship was one of the biggest parts of my growing up. i don't sit and worry about you because i know you are a strong girl, and that you can handle life. should i check on you more? yeah, because i know i should but i just havne't since i started school, which is shitty of me. and i will, not because i feel forced but because i want to.

xfaeriex March 8 2005, 20:05:06 UTC

I've been home a few times, and even tried getting a hold of your during Christmas break. Never worked out, obviously. And yes, you haven't seen me since Jared. We've done a lot and been through a mega-tron worth of things. And yes, I am strong, and Yes, I can handle my life, but having someone that's known you for the past nine years letting you know that things are OK, or "lol" to something would be nice, too.

bunnyagogo March 9 2005, 16:02:08 UTC

i'm sorry if you ever thought i didn't care, becuase i always have. i love, care and will be here for you anytime you need it, forever. don't forget that

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