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So yesterday was the 4th of July. Everyone went to Jay and Lori's house for a BBQ. It was nice, nothing big but good times anyway. So I actually talked to Justin. Tuesday night he sent me a message on Yahoo saying he is sorry he hasn't been around but something is wrong with his liver or something and the doctors did tests but won't know for a week. He's probably lying but ti's whatever. He's only some guy on the internet. Steve yet again has pretty much stopped talking to me again. I'm just not gunna try to be his friend anymore. I'm so frustrated with "friends" here. I mean I have some cool friends, but there are some that I thought I could be good friends with but I don't know what happened. Like Meagan... She has little parties sometimes and I'm never invited. I don't know what's up with that. I always hear about them from Katy or Lori. I didn't do anything wrong.. And then Andrew. I could really get along with him but he doesn't respond to any messages I send him on Myspace. Is there some sign on me that says "Stay away from this girl!" ? I just don't get it. I've never had problems like this. It's frustrating. So anyway, I want to go see the fireworks show at the Beau Rivage tonight. We were suppose to go out on the boat and watch them from the water, but the boat broke down today. So looks like that's not happening. I think I invited Steve last night cause he sent me a message today that said "when and where". That would've been awesome if he would've come with us, but now it's not happening :[ Maybe I can convince him to watch fireworks at the Beau with me not on the boat. Or someone else... I think I need to get laid really bad because all I seem to think about lately is guys and I really need to get that off of my mind. IT's all bad. Boys on the brain = NO GOOD! Well I'm gunna go have a cigarette now. 1:31pm
Esther
Esther