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I dont know what it is, weather's been nicest it's been in a while but I have found myself freezing as of late, to the point to wearing a pullover hoody in my apartment over my tee shirt. I don't know if I'm getting sick or if it's just stress but I haven't been able to eat or sleep much lately either.
Went to a Multiple Sclerosis fundraiser yesterday with my roommate and cousins, nothing big just an afternoon at a small bar rented out with a cover charge, raffles and all the profit from drinks and tips going to charity. Found myself throwing more money into the raffles then anything else, been feeling down lately and promised myself I wouldn't drink just cause I've been a little depressed(figure its the least I can do in appriciation for a good friend who helped me deal with drinking because of depression last year).
Jacinda dragged me out of the apartment earlier today to the Men's Wearhouse, yeah I dont have many(any?) nice clothes, never been one to dress up and don't think I will every really be. It's just that I've never really felt like an attractive person, but then again growing up being called names without any sort of counter balance will do that to a person. So anyway, its just like if ya don't like the way you look or whatever throwing on nicer clothes really isnt going to change that. So anyways I have a wedding I have to go to in mid-late May and instead of borrowing a suit that doesn't fit right I was talked into going and buying one. It was nice to have someone there to go back and forth until I found something I liked(plus having a female cousin there to reassure me that I didnt look like a deer stuck in head lights when trying on suits helped). When it was finally over and I stood there looking in the mirror I liked how I looked for the first time in a long time, sure I could have used a shave and need to figure out what im doing with my hair(still can't decide to let it grow out somewhat again or keep it short), but I liked it. Course it being a while since anyones payed that much attention to my junk in a while helped a bit(well no not really, but gotta get some sort of humor in here).
Heh ya know, for living with 2 roommates it gets lonely in apartment, considering really dont get along with one(not saying we dont get along either, just kind of nothing in common) and see the other one maybe 15 minutes a day. Ah well, a guy can dream of cleaner more sociable roommates.
Went to a Multiple Sclerosis fundraiser yesterday with my roommate and cousins, nothing big just an afternoon at a small bar rented out with a cover charge, raffles and all the profit from drinks and tips going to charity. Found myself throwing more money into the raffles then anything else, been feeling down lately and promised myself I wouldn't drink just cause I've been a little depressed(figure its the least I can do in appriciation for a good friend who helped me deal with drinking because of depression last year).
Jacinda dragged me out of the apartment earlier today to the Men's Wearhouse, yeah I dont have many(any?) nice clothes, never been one to dress up and don't think I will every really be. It's just that I've never really felt like an attractive person, but then again growing up being called names without any sort of counter balance will do that to a person. So anyway, its just like if ya don't like the way you look or whatever throwing on nicer clothes really isnt going to change that. So anyways I have a wedding I have to go to in mid-late May and instead of borrowing a suit that doesn't fit right I was talked into going and buying one. It was nice to have someone there to go back and forth until I found something I liked(plus having a female cousin there to reassure me that I didnt look like a deer stuck in head lights when trying on suits helped). When it was finally over and I stood there looking in the mirror I liked how I looked for the first time in a long time, sure I could have used a shave and need to figure out what im doing with my hair(still can't decide to let it grow out somewhat again or keep it short), but I liked it. Course it being a while since anyones payed that much attention to my junk in a while helped a bit(well no not really, but gotta get some sort of humor in here).
Heh ya know, for living with 2 roommates it gets lonely in apartment, considering really dont get along with one(not saying we dont get along either, just kind of nothing in common) and see the other one maybe 15 minutes a day. Ah well, a guy can dream of cleaner more sociable roommates.