It's time for one of those once in a blue moon updates again...
I got my hair cut today. I still can't decide if it's short enough, or too girly, or if I wanna just take clippers to my own head and shave it all off already or what, but it's driving me nuts. I'm hoping that by the time I wake up tomorrow I'll have made up my mind...
I also have two severe dilemmas that are attacking me at pretty much the same time. Dilemma #1: A girl. Fml, right? Best part is, she's got a boyfriend, but she doesn't like him too much anymore. I know she likes the shit out of me, but we haven't actually discussed it yet because I have no idea how she'd react if I brought it up. However, what the people around her are telling me, and things she does just kinda make it overly obvious. However, while I like her a lot, there ARE some things about her that could potentially drive me batshit crazy. Her Christian devotion is #1. Granted, she's not one of those Christians that tries to shove it all down everyone's throat, but she makes it pretty clear that she believes in God and loves Christ, etc., etc. Ugh. The second... Actually, well, there isn't really a second thing. The whole religion thing is such a big deal though, for me at least, that it almost counts for two.
Dilemma #2: My parents are moving back to Cali. Without me. Which leaves me here in Florida all by myself with no family to rely on should shit hit the fan. Obviously my first thought is that I should go back with them, but it's just not that easy. My mom and step dad have done a decent job, intentionally or not, of keeping their social circle at the smallest size possible. I on the other hand have made a good number of friends, and would be heartbroken to leave them all behind. On top of that, Petaluma isn't exactly my number 1 choice for where to move to in Cali. In fact, I never liked anything about Petaluma, save for The Phoenix where I saw Powerman5000 and a few other bands. On top of that, I'm finally doing well for myself, not really relying on anyone but myself to make it by. Yeah, sometimes I'm a little financially fucked, but rent gets paid on time, my phone is (for the most part) paid on time, and I make it to and from work without too much trouble. I make enough to spoil myself here and there, and finally know my way around this convoluted area. So up and leaving at this point would be kinda stupid, and I'd have to worry about finding a replacement here and packing up all my shit and ending up god knows where working somewhere I've never been and basically starting all over. At this point, it almost feels like Florida is alright, and that I just want to get away by making it big and touring to give myself an occasional escape. But I dunno. I dunno what to do at this point. I've got til May 1st (May 1st seems to be a pretty significant day for me in Florida lol) to figure out what I want to do. After that, I'll legitimately be on my own.
Anyways, I dunno how to end this, so here's some songs my parents raised me on lol.
The Police - Message In A Bottle
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLFF2P8fInI
Nine Inch Nails - Terrible Lie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=horLLxUj3nM
Roxette - Dangerous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Atiyl3ECACk
Mike Oldfield - Trick Of The Light
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mFzrXbXVxOM
Dire Straits - Money For Nothing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5whfJQihgAo
Good shit lol.
I also have two severe dilemmas that are attacking me at pretty much the same time. Dilemma #1: A girl. Fml, right? Best part is, she's got a boyfriend, but she doesn't like him too much anymore. I know she likes the shit out of me, but we haven't actually discussed it yet because I have no idea how she'd react if I brought it up. However, what the people around her are telling me, and things she does just kinda make it overly obvious. However, while I like her a lot, there ARE some things about her that could potentially drive me batshit crazy. Her Christian devotion is #1. Granted, she's not one of those Christians that tries to shove it all down everyone's throat, but she makes it pretty clear that she believes in God and loves Christ, etc., etc. Ugh. The second... Actually, well, there isn't really a second thing. The whole religion thing is such a big deal though, for me at least, that it almost counts for two.
Dilemma #2: My parents are moving back to Cali. Without me. Which leaves me here in Florida all by myself with no family to rely on should shit hit the fan. Obviously my first thought is that I should go back with them, but it's just not that easy. My mom and step dad have done a decent job, intentionally or not, of keeping their social circle at the smallest size possible. I on the other hand have made a good number of friends, and would be heartbroken to leave them all behind. On top of that, Petaluma isn't exactly my number 1 choice for where to move to in Cali. In fact, I never liked anything about Petaluma, save for The Phoenix where I saw Powerman5000 and a few other bands. On top of that, I'm finally doing well for myself, not really relying on anyone but myself to make it by. Yeah, sometimes I'm a little financially fucked, but rent gets paid on time, my phone is (for the most part) paid on time, and I make it to and from work without too much trouble. I make enough to spoil myself here and there, and finally know my way around this convoluted area. So up and leaving at this point would be kinda stupid, and I'd have to worry about finding a replacement here and packing up all my shit and ending up god knows where working somewhere I've never been and basically starting all over. At this point, it almost feels like Florida is alright, and that I just want to get away by making it big and touring to give myself an occasional escape. But I dunno. I dunno what to do at this point. I've got til May 1st (May 1st seems to be a pretty significant day for me in Florida lol) to figure out what I want to do. After that, I'll legitimately be on my own.
Anyways, I dunno how to end this, so here's some songs my parents raised me on lol.
The Police - Message In A Bottle
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLFF2P8fInI
Nine Inch Nails - Terrible Lie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=horLLxUj3nM
Roxette - Dangerous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Atiyl3ECACk
Mike Oldfield - Trick Of The Light
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mFzrXbXVxOM
Dire Straits - Money For Nothing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5whfJQihgAo
Good shit lol.