sigh of relief

[xenophobic]

i think everything is okay now. i made him come over today, even though he didn't want to, and we talked. well, at first we didn't, and we exchanged saying things like, "maybe i'm not the one meant for you." & etc. i got frustrated after a while and pulled my knees to my chest, burying my face in my hands, and he did something i honestly didn't expect him to. getting up, he came over to the bed, and layed near me, pulling me to him. "i'll always love you" he said, and for some reason it sounded so final. like, i'll always love you and i'm sorry we can't work it out. i started to cry this time and he surprised me again, wiping my tears away and letting me cling to him.

so we talked, we joked, and everything is better now. i think.

a renewed sense of hope, happiness, and love. i'm hoping he feels it too.