not much longer
coming home with tears in my eyes, crawling in bed and lying there. my mom kept trying to get me up but i just wouldn't.
last week i had listed off days when trenton might be free, and he said he was free on monday. great. then, saturday, i asked him when we could talk. his reply: monday. so yesterday, sunday, i was making sure that he was going to come over, since today is our eight month anniversary. he said he didn't know if he wanted to.
in chemistry i came back to where he was sitting before class, and slid my hands inside his jacket, placing my arms around him, & whispered, "happy anniversary" with a smile.. only to see a somewhat confused look on his face. he had forgotten.
then worst of all, he hung out with luke and val today after school. that hurt. a lot. not like i would have minded otherwise.. but i thought i would see him & i needed to see him. i was planning on making him dinner and holding him and kissing him and telling him that i love him; everything was going to turn out okay.
but he wasn't there.
so i rolled over in bed, snuggled deep under the heavy blankets, and drifted off to a state of half-sleep.
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it hurts too much to keep doing this for long. love shouldn't be like this.
last week i had listed off days when trenton might be free, and he said he was free on monday. great. then, saturday, i asked him when we could talk. his reply: monday. so yesterday, sunday, i was making sure that he was going to come over, since today is our eight month anniversary. he said he didn't know if he wanted to.
in chemistry i came back to where he was sitting before class, and slid my hands inside his jacket, placing my arms around him, & whispered, "happy anniversary" with a smile.. only to see a somewhat confused look on his face. he had forgotten.
then worst of all, he hung out with luke and val today after school. that hurt. a lot. not like i would have minded otherwise.. but i thought i would see him & i needed to see him. i was planning on making him dinner and holding him and kissing him and telling him that i love him; everything was going to turn out okay.
but he wasn't there.
so i rolled over in bed, snuggled deep under the heavy blankets, and drifted off to a state of half-sleep.
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it hurts too much to keep doing this for long. love shouldn't be like this.