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what a day, im sick and i feel like shit, second period wasnt too bad but i still wish that i could have slept through it. at break i talked to lauren, i told her to her face that i was sorry, i dont know if she even cared, but at least i feel somewhat better that i actually said it to her face, but when i looked at her... i saw the hurt... in her eyes and *crying* just remember the looks makes me fuckin cry, i just cant believe it now that i did that. i was thinking about it all fucking week and all i came down to was that, the reason why i care so much if she hates me or not, is that i love her, yes i fucking love her like i didnt even know, it took the loss of her to make me realize how much she really means to me. wow i sound like a helpless romantic, but its so fucking true, im no one with out my freinds, my freinds made me, every single one of them whether they moved or they are now my enemies, they help make me into the person that i am, but as you can tell some of my freinds didnt teach me the best of shit. they left some parts out. well i feel better now somewhat anway. tonight im gonna shit on my rooftop, and watch the stars and make a fucking wish. ok well im out.leave a comment