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ages since i wrote in this thing.. i feel really battered and bruised today :S im like covered in bruises and all really achey and stiff :( dont know how or why though..
i feel kinda low at the minute, i feel like a bit of a bitch to put it simply, i dont like the way some of my friends are acting towards others, and it seems like i get caught up in it and it always involves me.. and then i start yelling :S doesnt your conscience do that to you already? i feel bad for having a go and maybe its not my place but i care a lot about my friends and if theyr hurting then even though i know i probably shouldnt, i always step in :S
everything seems to be breaking dowen around me.. friends relationships, friendships, everyone else's problems.. and i always try being the saint and helping them because i hate seeing people upset or down, but then it seems like i dont have enough time to sort out my own life, and even saying that now i feel really selfish. i dont like the person iv become.. i seem to have changed, i dont know what from, and i dont know what to, but i dont like the person i now am..
and i dont say this enough but thankyou to veerybody who i can rely on and i can talk to and cry to because without you i dont know where id be.. you know who you are..
xx
i feel kinda low at the minute, i feel like a bit of a bitch to put it simply, i dont like the way some of my friends are acting towards others, and it seems like i get caught up in it and it always involves me.. and then i start yelling :S doesnt your conscience do that to you already? i feel bad for having a go and maybe its not my place but i care a lot about my friends and if theyr hurting then even though i know i probably shouldnt, i always step in :S
everything seems to be breaking dowen around me.. friends relationships, friendships, everyone else's problems.. and i always try being the saint and helping them because i hate seeing people upset or down, but then it seems like i dont have enough time to sort out my own life, and even saying that now i feel really selfish. i dont like the person iv become.. i seem to have changed, i dont know what from, and i dont know what to, but i dont like the person i now am..
and i dont say this enough but thankyou to veerybody who i can rely on and i can talk to and cry to because without you i dont know where id be.. you know who you are..
xx