everything's different, but nothing has changed.
over spring break,
i decided it would be an awesome idea if i went home.
this was going to be a great idea because of a few reasons -
a) i really missed home.
b) i was poooooor.
c) i missed my friends, a lot.
d) i was burnt out.
however, once i got there, probably about...15 minutes after settling in, i realized what a mistake i had made.
and as much as i'd loveeee to sit here and put blame on other people,
it's my fault, and i get that.
one day, i was driving around with my sister, and she put this starting line song and sitting there listening to the lyrics, i realized how much has changed in my life lately.
and it makes me want to scream, cry, and throw things because to be blunt, i'm not ready to grow up.
i'm not ready to be in college, and i'm certainly not ready to be a JUNIOR in college.
i'm not ready to make grown up decisions, and live with the consequences of bad ones.
i'm scared. and i'm alone. and no one seems to care.
..."selective attention", the starting line.
You’ve made quite a life for yourself
one better than you’ve dreamt
but it's weighing down
the sides of your mouth
to an appearing frown
there's more to it
than it might sound
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention
try and steady yourself
but with one hand down
losing balance
take a look at your hometown
you're a different person now
only one who hasn't changed
only one who's stayed the same
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention
Make it a point to appreciate the life you lead
don't rush the days you'll
wish they stayed for one year later
it's a tragic case of bad taste
but it's all concerning you
who truly can appreciate the
mess you've made
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention
i decided it would be an awesome idea if i went home.
this was going to be a great idea because of a few reasons -
a) i really missed home.
b) i was poooooor.
c) i missed my friends, a lot.
d) i was burnt out.
however, once i got there, probably about...15 minutes after settling in, i realized what a mistake i had made.
and as much as i'd loveeee to sit here and put blame on other people,
it's my fault, and i get that.
one day, i was driving around with my sister, and she put this starting line song and sitting there listening to the lyrics, i realized how much has changed in my life lately.
and it makes me want to scream, cry, and throw things because to be blunt, i'm not ready to grow up.
i'm not ready to be in college, and i'm certainly not ready to be a JUNIOR in college.
i'm not ready to make grown up decisions, and live with the consequences of bad ones.
i'm scared. and i'm alone. and no one seems to care.
..."selective attention", the starting line.
You’ve made quite a life for yourself
one better than you’ve dreamt
but it's weighing down
the sides of your mouth
to an appearing frown
there's more to it
than it might sound
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention
try and steady yourself
but with one hand down
losing balance
take a look at your hometown
you're a different person now
only one who hasn't changed
only one who's stayed the same
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention
Make it a point to appreciate the life you lead
don't rush the days you'll
wish they stayed for one year later
it's a tragic case of bad taste
but it's all concerning you
who truly can appreciate the
mess you've made
sharpen your overacting skills
to cut through the tension
mark your words
with confidence:
selective attention