situation #20409078
Hmmm so after a long break in life, approxamately 18 months give or take, I've decided to start writing and documenting the events of my life in hopes to finally achieve some sort of clarity and understanding and eventually allow myself to transcend into the entity that I should have been years ago. I've made huge strides in my journey back from the proverbial dead. I stand on the edge of greatness again, feeling better than I have since autumn 2003. I started to get the writing bug again, starting with here and flowing into my ficitional work which I'll be into again soon I am sure. I lost myself for awhile there.. and it's been a long hard road out of hell as it is said. So without further adue I get into the current status of MattallicA.
Having moved into Rockland Co. in early 2006 to escape the mundane and rather unfulfilling life that is Staten Island, I was presented with the usual problems of such a displacement. No job, no money, know no one, feeling rather lost and overwhelmed. Quickly I conquered most of these by getting my old job back at Rain Mist in Staten Island. Not the best of moves but one of desperation which allowed me to make what I need to uphold my share of the house I am renting. Over the next few months, after the ROAD TRIP ACROSS AMERICA - which will be written out soon, I settled down to the task of finding employment somewhat closer to home. I became more and more distressed working 60 miles away and while I was making decent money, it was just not enough. I put into motion a plan that i've put off for a year. I called my brother-in-law and set up what needed to be done for me to go back to work as an elevator constructor. I put 5 years into that job
and managed to do well, but the incidents surrounding what happened to be from 2001 - early 2003 left me despondent and lacking fatih in myself. I didn't think I wanted to return because of not thinking I'd be able to succeed.. now, I am a different beast altogether. I'm positive that nothing less than complete success is in my future. This is a long time coming and I welcome the sunrise for the first time in a long time.
Now as for Situation # 20409078...
I started trying to befriend people who lived in my area on Myspace. I figured it was a safe way to find like-minded people whom I can talk to, maybe go out for ooffee with, just to develop a new circle of friends. Now for someone who doesn't look, but is 30, this is a rather difficult avenue. I met a handful of people, most of which faded away quickly as they often do, however one shot in the dark returned rather interesting results. I've started talking to someone, almost daily who's really awesome and fun and sarcastic, a perfect combination for me. She's beautiful as well and from what I can gather from her veiled and scattered compliments she thinks the same of me. It's a new time and place for me, I've cast aside all anchors that have led me to screwing up situations like this almost immediately, and just concentrated on having fun and being a wise ass. I'm giving all I got into not getting too excited and secretly wishing that this goes a bit further. Just another lesson in controlling my emotions and gaining control over who I am and what makes me smile...
until the next time