and its too late to do anything but cry

[xdiscarnatex]

so yesterday was tara's graduation+birthday party.it was alot of fun.the night mostly worked out in my favor.its funny how much effort i put into my appearance when i know ill see dom.when i got there,there was much sitting around.ryan never showed up.and just as i put my guitar on someones like "dom's here" so i put my guitar down and ran up to him all happy.he brought avi with him.sooo we played for the final last time.it was pretty fun.at first we had a good crowd,then no one watched us and that made me really pissed.i sang cadillac with trisa heh.i played fat lip fairly decent.im such a bad guitarist hah.then i got my parrot bay+dom got his captain.i got really drunk really fast.and remained so for the whole night.i like dom *big grin*.he was fun.we took a walk+pet a horse....and then ventured into a gathering of trees.GRIM haha.i have a hard time NOT saying everything that comes to mind when im drunk haha.do fun,its fun to do.anyway,i hung out with niko for awhile.then i went back to dominick.he got skinny! he looks so good.damn,what a hottie he is.it was fun being drunk with him.it was fun being drunk.it was a real good drunk too.haha the W stars.im such a retard.anyhow,shelly is fun.i like shelly.SHES GRIM.and jon came but i didnt really get to talk to him.i met his friend but totally couldnt see his face.i couldnt really see straight...i really like being with dom.dom left cuz avi wanted to leave.so i was sad.and niko left too.so i was hanging out with this dan guy.he was pretty cool.we finished off my bottle and played guitar.TODD WAS THERE! i was really happy to see him.this joe kid was being a huge asshole to chasco and i felt bad.but then he told me that he wasnt being serious and he was just fucking with him.dave...is cool haha.i dunno,just something about him makes you like "damn,hes so cool" and he was amusing when he was drunk..for the 5 minutes that i was there.so i slept next to todd on the floor.then woke up to hangover fun.drank alot of water,then went outside and puked it up.came home,puked more.then slept...and forced some food down.i barely ate yesterday,and then today.im starting to feel better.niko is coming over tonight i think.i have california pictures.ill post them sometime.X

RIP RAPING ROBERT


When you were here before
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You’re so fuckin’ special

But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.

I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I’m not around
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special

But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.

She’s running out again,
She’s running out
She’s run run run running out...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special...

But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t belong here.