as of late
as of late my life has been opne huge rollarcoaster. mostly highs with a few lows but when i hit a low man does my mood get bad fast and stays only for a while but its bad for the while its there. i have been getting along great with steve. im not really more accepting of ally but im trying to be. steve's car broke... well the cap to his engine broke and because he modified it he has to wait for a new cap to be delievered. anyways... i told him he could have my car for the weekend if he wanted, and he could even let ally in my car if he wanted or could call me during the week and i would give him my car after work for a few hours. he didnt take it for this weekend but he has me picking him up when he wants to go to grandmas or come see the baby which is fine i dont care. im happy as long as he is not driving his car its just not safe he may break down. the other night i followed him home cause it was raining heavily and his car stalled going up terry hill so badly the other day he couldnt get up it. id rather him be safe in a car that works then drive around his civic that needs a part and cant do any hills... i went out to eat with steve and the baby at applebees the other night we didnt talk almost the whole time. i dont know why but when aj is next to me i always pay much more attanetion to aj. i think this is one of the reasons why me and steve arent together cause ally regaurdless will give him that attention.
aj had a field trip today to go to a farm and go on a hayride and pumpkin picking and apple picking and yada yada but that didnt work out cause we had to cancel cause the farm was so bvadly soaked and all of the staff called in on this poor farmer. lol... and u were talking about 30 toddlers here and bout 10 backed outta the trip before that number was 30. so i went to steve's grandmas with aj instead. he loves his grandma so much lol... aunt domminica came over and we all went to kohls and we bought a buncha things. mostly pj's for for aj... winter ones he was in great need of them... then we went to yes applebees again... then i drove grandma and aunt domminica back to grandmas house and went home and here i am.
the months from hell have basically started. b-days golore and they just dont stop. somebody help me. cause im gonna sink in b-day cake and buying so many fucking presents it sucks... by the time it starts to end its christmas and then another fucking b-day right after that... i mean wtf.
anyways tonight i think im gonna pick up my mom from work and take her to the mall to get an outfit for a party she has tommorow and then im gonna call toni and prolly go out to dinner. as for tommorrow besdies picking steve up to go and see aj... i think i am just gonna stay home. and that will be my weekend cause i aint going to steve's stepfathers b-day party.
umm... and november 6th i decided with grandma that we r gonna do a b-day for me and aj and steve all together. grandma is gonna be away until october 30th late at night she will be home. which is also steve's b-day. aj is the october 26th. steve is october 30th and i am november 9th... so we r gonna do it on the very next sunday. which is the 6th. fun fun fun... huh... aj will of cource have something at my house too though. i really hope steve doesnt aspect me to say its okay if ally comes... im tolerent but not that tolerent yet.
besides that thats bout it work sucks for the most part. it keeps me occupied and normally its not too bad... but the bad days r from hell. and i at least have 2 of those a week. ulgh. im looking at going back to school in january. im thinking i will go for therapy. i dunno yet... we shall see. byes for now
aj had a field trip today to go to a farm and go on a hayride and pumpkin picking and apple picking and yada yada but that didnt work out cause we had to cancel cause the farm was so bvadly soaked and all of the staff called in on this poor farmer. lol... and u were talking about 30 toddlers here and bout 10 backed outta the trip before that number was 30. so i went to steve's grandmas with aj instead. he loves his grandma so much lol... aunt domminica came over and we all went to kohls and we bought a buncha things. mostly pj's for for aj... winter ones he was in great need of them... then we went to yes applebees again... then i drove grandma and aunt domminica back to grandmas house and went home and here i am.
the months from hell have basically started. b-days golore and they just dont stop. somebody help me. cause im gonna sink in b-day cake and buying so many fucking presents it sucks... by the time it starts to end its christmas and then another fucking b-day right after that... i mean wtf.
anyways tonight i think im gonna pick up my mom from work and take her to the mall to get an outfit for a party she has tommorow and then im gonna call toni and prolly go out to dinner. as for tommorrow besdies picking steve up to go and see aj... i think i am just gonna stay home. and that will be my weekend cause i aint going to steve's stepfathers b-day party.
umm... and november 6th i decided with grandma that we r gonna do a b-day for me and aj and steve all together. grandma is gonna be away until october 30th late at night she will be home. which is also steve's b-day. aj is the october 26th. steve is october 30th and i am november 9th... so we r gonna do it on the very next sunday. which is the 6th. fun fun fun... huh... aj will of cource have something at my house too though. i really hope steve doesnt aspect me to say its okay if ally comes... im tolerent but not that tolerent yet.
besides that thats bout it work sucks for the most part. it keeps me occupied and normally its not too bad... but the bad days r from hell. and i at least have 2 of those a week. ulgh. im looking at going back to school in january. im thinking i will go for therapy. i dunno yet... we shall see. byes for now