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im feeling much better today. still not happy but much better. yesterday i had a good day for the most part. kind of a hard day at the same time in knowing what was going to be happening later, but i was okay. yesterday had a lot of laughs and a lot of hard things throughout it. i dont think i have ever had sucha hard time in that way before. it was weird. we shall see how today goes. anyways bedies my mindless rant that prolly makes no sence to anybody but me and this is kinda purposeful.
i told steve that if he really wanted to i would let him bring out aj with ally today cause she had came home. and i didnt want something that i had said or done to effect him badly. he said he would see what they were doing, and then call me. which is fine. truthfully i dont ant the baby to go out with her... but is roles were reversed i wouldnt want steve to do that to me and i dont think he would so in good concouis i cant do it to him. its kinda cruel to do to him.
umm... my boss wants me to go for my rn... i dont think i wanna be an rn. i would rather be a therapist/casac. which dr peter wants me to do. he is our head psychartrist and says that all the patients have said i am great to talk to and had been really pushing me to go to school for it. i think i have always had a gift for talking to people and making them if not feel better look at things from a view different pionts of veiw and then be able to help them. i like it. truthfully its the favorite part of my job talking to the patients. what intrests me is not so much as seeing the patients get better. but how they fall into their addictions and what triggers their relaspes. what causes their personality disorders and what causes them not to care and stop taking meds which then starts relaspes and such. i think i have a great amount of personal intrest in it so i may take dr peter up on his offer and presue it cause he says he will reccomend me into programs and the department will pay for my classes all i need to do is buy the books.
other then that i dont know what really to type im sure... i will have more to say later this week... maybe some stuff to say that isnt in codes too lmao
i told steve that if he really wanted to i would let him bring out aj with ally today cause she had came home. and i didnt want something that i had said or done to effect him badly. he said he would see what they were doing, and then call me. which is fine. truthfully i dont ant the baby to go out with her... but is roles were reversed i wouldnt want steve to do that to me and i dont think he would so in good concouis i cant do it to him. its kinda cruel to do to him.
umm... my boss wants me to go for my rn... i dont think i wanna be an rn. i would rather be a therapist/casac. which dr peter wants me to do. he is our head psychartrist and says that all the patients have said i am great to talk to and had been really pushing me to go to school for it. i think i have always had a gift for talking to people and making them if not feel better look at things from a view different pionts of veiw and then be able to help them. i like it. truthfully its the favorite part of my job talking to the patients. what intrests me is not so much as seeing the patients get better. but how they fall into their addictions and what triggers their relaspes. what causes their personality disorders and what causes them not to care and stop taking meds which then starts relaspes and such. i think i have a great amount of personal intrest in it so i may take dr peter up on his offer and presue it cause he says he will reccomend me into programs and the department will pay for my classes all i need to do is buy the books.
other then that i dont know what really to type im sure... i will have more to say later this week... maybe some stuff to say that isnt in codes too lmao