......this boys much to young to be singing the blues
Ahhhhh, so my last entry was a bit disterbing. I just needed to get some things out. I do feel a lot better now.
Today, along with this week and weekend was rather uneventful. I been working with my Aunts ex-husband, Monte, for a about a month now and its working out alright I guess. Im making more money and my stress levels have dropped tremindisly, being that I get along better with Monte than I do my last boss, Heath. but I do miss Heath in a lot of ways. I mean off the job we got a long great. I give him full credit as being the person that got me intrested in guitar, being that he introduced me to it and gave me my first lessons. But working with him wasnt working out. You just cant work for friends and you cant have friends working for you. just doesnt work out. I havnt talked to him since I abruptly quit and for that I feel kinda guilty. I was coming off of drug and alcohol problems at the time, so he kinda knew it was coming anyway, i suspected..
anyway i didnt do a damn thing this weekend. i did reluctently fix my car though and i did sleep a WHOLE lot. I was suposed to go on a date with my ex-gf Brittany, but the damn twat didnt return my phone call lol. I also missed UFC 54 and THAT pissed me off! I am downloading it as we speak, but my cousin Dustin accidently told me who won out of 2 of the biggest fights on the event. little bastard.... also, i was at O'Reillys auto parts this weekend getting coil packs(things that ignite my spark plugs) and new spark plugs for my car...well, i met this girl that worked there. i dont know, something about her wont escape my mind. She wasnt beautiful to the avarage person by any means, kinda rare looking, but goregous to me. about 19, tall, goofy mohawk haircut, black nail polish and somewhat crooked teeth..but something about her eyes, voice and personality really intrested me. We flirted obviously and heavily. i dont know? the rest of the day thoughts of her bothered me. I even consittered going back to o'reillys and buying something else just to see her again and perhaps slip her my phone number.....but i didnt and that was friday. Strange. I feel like maybe I should have and i missed out on something... ahhh, uncertainty always haunts me and intrests me. I bet if i went to see her again and actually give her my number and she called me I would lose intrest in her at that moment. See! I love the mystery of uncertainty. All the women I loved the most were ones I knew I could not have! I hate that, but at the same time it makes me question who I really am. As a person that loves the impossible, am I a person destined to reach for the stars? Should I set goals for myself which are impossible, just to see where they take me? who knows? ahhhhhhh, its time for me to go to bed.....otherwise i'd be babbling along all night.
Today, along with this week and weekend was rather uneventful. I been working with my Aunts ex-husband, Monte, for a about a month now and its working out alright I guess. Im making more money and my stress levels have dropped tremindisly, being that I get along better with Monte than I do my last boss, Heath. but I do miss Heath in a lot of ways. I mean off the job we got a long great. I give him full credit as being the person that got me intrested in guitar, being that he introduced me to it and gave me my first lessons. But working with him wasnt working out. You just cant work for friends and you cant have friends working for you. just doesnt work out. I havnt talked to him since I abruptly quit and for that I feel kinda guilty. I was coming off of drug and alcohol problems at the time, so he kinda knew it was coming anyway, i suspected..
anyway i didnt do a damn thing this weekend. i did reluctently fix my car though and i did sleep a WHOLE lot. I was suposed to go on a date with my ex-gf Brittany, but the damn twat didnt return my phone call lol. I also missed UFC 54 and THAT pissed me off! I am downloading it as we speak, but my cousin Dustin accidently told me who won out of 2 of the biggest fights on the event. little bastard.... also, i was at O'Reillys auto parts this weekend getting coil packs(things that ignite my spark plugs) and new spark plugs for my car...well, i met this girl that worked there. i dont know, something about her wont escape my mind. She wasnt beautiful to the avarage person by any means, kinda rare looking, but goregous to me. about 19, tall, goofy mohawk haircut, black nail polish and somewhat crooked teeth..but something about her eyes, voice and personality really intrested me. We flirted obviously and heavily. i dont know? the rest of the day thoughts of her bothered me. I even consittered going back to o'reillys and buying something else just to see her again and perhaps slip her my phone number.....but i didnt and that was friday. Strange. I feel like maybe I should have and i missed out on something... ahhh, uncertainty always haunts me and intrests me. I bet if i went to see her again and actually give her my number and she called me I would lose intrest in her at that moment. See! I love the mystery of uncertainty. All the women I loved the most were ones I knew I could not have! I hate that, but at the same time it makes me question who I really am. As a person that loves the impossible, am I a person destined to reach for the stars? Should I set goals for myself which are impossible, just to see where they take me? who knows? ahhhhhhh, its time for me to go to bed.....otherwise i'd be babbling along all night.