So where's this going?

[xclubstudx]

Wow, so its been a while, and a very interesting one, X-mas break was that and a crackerjack. I didn't spend that much at Jason's, but i spent a LOT of time with him, and man do i love that boi, i've made a lot of new freinds, in every dimension, i think i've found a few new close ones, and a bunch of fun ones and i'm really excited to see where they will go, i went to canada on a sunday with tony, kayla, tiff, jason, jimmy w, jimmy b,and mikey, and it was a str8 ethnic club, and i can't say it wasn't fun, we danced our asses off, and i found tiff to be a compatable dancer for myself, the martini's AT "Dean Martini's" sucked a LOT, they were half-filled, who does that? anyways i love what Ruehl has done on expanding my social calender and phone book, i've met so many fun str8 ppl, guys who will invite me out to the bar, or for a beer, or will invite me over for a smokeout and some Halo, they even ask about danny and stuff, its cool, so where else is this going, umm, i met Danny on a whim, he came in and i had just made freinds with this cutey, Ginger, from Ruehl and her buddy's were in for an orientation and i was like "OMG, who's that" you can ask jason, b/c i think he was nearby, Ginger was like "Thats Danny, he's str8", uh-huh, he imed me a few days later, the rest is history, it was fun, and new, and it made me smile, so he's been playing a role, but he just quit Ruehl and went back to AnF, i kinda want to too, but i like the free clothes, and my Mngs Kelly, Scynthia, Teira(i have no clue how to spell it) and Dereck and theres more, The new line's coming out, and i like the studded denim jacket,and theres some red floral prints along the back. I got a facial at Aveda with Jason, saw ian and irenes mom and fam, i heart them, i've had a few parties over break, some were fun and some were FUN with a capital F U N, I wish i could have made it to the Black and White Affair, but next time, there were so many parties, i can barely tell them a part, my days are just prolonged play sessions with recess for classes and homework, and i'm ok with that. I got to see some family this break, i really missed Nick and Chris alot, and it was nice to eat with my grandpa, who stood up for me every time someone tried ripping on my clothes, which was most of the evening, but my little cousins are coming up sometime soon, and my aunt and uncle want me to take them around campus and get them pumped for college, should be fun. I remember one of the parties i went to was with my neighbors and all their girlfreinds, and it was on Stoddard, it was a kegger, we put like 9 ppl in a car, it was fun. I met a girl from Northern who does not fall under that "northern" stertype, she was fun, we hung out in the parking garage for a bit. ~bridge~ anywho, i got to see erica and mandy, i love them girls, RON<--->U is CRAZY, *muah* I miss adam and nate alot, The framily X-mas party at mikeys was my kind of fun, we're definately going to have to do it again next year, 9 pm sounds good? So I became good freinds with patrick long, and kayla, and paige, and the neighbors, and then theres Jacky and Alina, the qts from KKG and then theres Rita and Zahna from Alpha Phi's, and you know they are bound to be fun, another mention for tiff, p.s. what are we going to call it? EmJay's fun and so is mallory and bobby, Raj is a sweet heart too. So i have less classes, but i think its going to be harder, i hate trig, but whatever, i know some smart ppl, so hopefully they can help me out. Leah and I are great, and i'm really glad we made it through what we did, she means alot to me and is one of the ppl who has made me look more carefully at my words and actions and reivaluate some things, thanks hun. I love the MUSHI, I miss not having those road trips to ruehl with jason, b/c he's taking a break for a while and the makes me sad, Missy and Lisa had a Kareoke Night, and it was hot, and i liked it. Trish and Nina both made it out to hang with the gang over break, i met the bill form that side of town. I miss Topher, ther first cat to ever cuddle with me, i'm never kispering another cat in my life. Can i just say i LOVE Garden State, thanks kayla for showing me it and thanks ryan for the gift card the enabled me to get it. I've spent alot of time at the malls lately, prolly to much, but whatever, i got organized over break, all my bills and reciepts, and i threw out a LOT of junk, and it was just a nice way to start of the new year, i dont know if im going to have a new years resolution, i've made it this far without one. Maybe it will be to make myself a better person, and get rid a bunch of small things as opposed to one big thing, we'll see, I feel like all the ppl that are in my life will be there next year unless they move out of the state, even then, theres still facebook, myspce, and aim to keep in touch, JC is awesome, i wish he could remember his new years, it seemed fun and he is always full of surprises that make dance, i've been talking to my "Str8 lover for life"-Diana Ferris, ex from hawaii that lives in Reno, shes ingaged now, jeff's hot, and Jamie Glenn is back in my life now, its weird how things you go for never come and when you stop looking for it, its right there. Things like that make me smile, i can't wait to boom with some of the most amazing ppl of my life. Everything seems to be fairly peacefull on the homefront, and who knows, maybe we might make it to whoretechs age with the same freinds, just more intimate and complicated relationships, everything is so collective, and i finally have ppl to say "hey remember when....." I've never really had that before, due to all the moving around i've done, but i love it. I feel a few ppl have walked out of my life, or faded, but that doesnt depress me, i look at like im just glad they were there at that time, you can't ask for more, for every freind who disappears 2 or 3 appear in their place, so just smile and take pictures and remember everthing happens for a reason, good or bad, happy or sad, love and hate. I'm living for now with some regard for the future, but not too much, and i'm just glad i have a lot of ppl sitting here with me for this ride, now lets just roll down the windows and shout and laugh your hearts out, cry if it feels good, smile because you know it does.

I heart those of you who have sat through all of that and let me know if you read it, because im revamping my journal and bring back to life, so let me know if you're with me, and lets not make it drama, love you ppls

~Bill
*muah*