MY DAD!!!
yesterday i found my father's family!!!
i never knew my father.he died in an accident when i was 2 and he and my mother were not married.they were not together when i was born.they were kids and were dating when she found out she was pregnant with me.i never knew his family.i grew up not even knowing what my own father looked like.that was the worst thing.i always wondered if i looked like him.there was always a blank in my mind when i tried to picture him.
i am so stunned and in shock that im numb.i dont feel like this is happening.i have a whole family out on the west coast who want to know me and couldnt find me.i talked to 2 uncles and my grandmother.my uncle e-mailed me a picture of my dad.i saw his face for the first time in my life.i cried so hard and i couldnt stop staring.luckily my computer came with sample sheets of photo paper so i printed an 8x10 to hang on my wall.i am so thankful that i am clean and sober.i would never want them to meet me that way.i think now was the right time.
im so shocked i cant even concentrate enough to type.i have my whole identity for the first time in my life...
i never knew my father.he died in an accident when i was 2 and he and my mother were not married.they were not together when i was born.they were kids and were dating when she found out she was pregnant with me.i never knew his family.i grew up not even knowing what my own father looked like.that was the worst thing.i always wondered if i looked like him.there was always a blank in my mind when i tried to picture him.
i am so stunned and in shock that im numb.i dont feel like this is happening.i have a whole family out on the west coast who want to know me and couldnt find me.i talked to 2 uncles and my grandmother.my uncle e-mailed me a picture of my dad.i saw his face for the first time in my life.i cried so hard and i couldnt stop staring.luckily my computer came with sample sheets of photo paper so i printed an 8x10 to hang on my wall.i am so thankful that i am clean and sober.i would never want them to meet me that way.i think now was the right time.
im so shocked i cant even concentrate enough to type.i have my whole identity for the first time in my life...