rough draft to my rough day. if you can say that.
so im now ungrounded from the computer & my cell cos i brought my english grade up. so i fail i being normal but if i can bring a grade up i get ungrounded. sweet.
i miss jeremy already and he just left yesterday. im way tired. too tired for this time of night. but oh well.
i went and turned in an application today at the tanning bed. they're not hiring right now but i know someone who works there who is about to drop some hours. score. ?maybe?. anyways.
as of friends at this dreaded 8 hour a day function we call "school" i dont have many and i dont care too cos i dont plan on staying here much longer. its almost senior year. too bad i have to miss out of all the normal senior functions. i almost want to say that i hate my parents for doing this to me but i just cant bring myself to it. i have no real friends in my grade. i guess that okay. my best friend here is going to be leaving at the end of this semester. great. as the tears trinkle down my face i almost want to scream but hopefully God will lend me a hand and guide me through this.
as for friends in general. im seeing who my true friends are. i dont have any but katelyn & jeremy. and sometimes i think tehy're all i need. everyone else is dumb. they back stab & talk crap. they're fake and retarded. maybe im being rebellious on the subject but im being to despise some of the people i use to know. if i can even say i know them because now that i live here, im starting to see the real them and i hate them for being so fake.
i wana scream.
i want to say that today was a wonderful day so badly but when it really comes down to the truth, i can't bring myself to speak those words.
the one job i want isnt hiring. i had an abnormal longing to be in jeremys arms all day. i could taste coffee all the morning but my school wont let us drink anything unless its during lunch, and if you think for one second this day in time my school provides coffee, you're dead wrong.
i dont wana be here in clarksville anymore.
i dont belong.
and as much as i preach about it everyday, unfortunately nothing will ever change. i havent been this far down in the dumps in a while... and i suppose the lack of medication for four days could be the answer to my problem.
i think im going to go i/m an old friend and talk some things over because i havent exactly been a friend to her since she moved.
kbye.
i miss jeremy already and he just left yesterday. im way tired. too tired for this time of night. but oh well.
i went and turned in an application today at the tanning bed. they're not hiring right now but i know someone who works there who is about to drop some hours. score. ?maybe?. anyways.
as of friends at this dreaded 8 hour a day function we call "school" i dont have many and i dont care too cos i dont plan on staying here much longer. its almost senior year. too bad i have to miss out of all the normal senior functions. i almost want to say that i hate my parents for doing this to me but i just cant bring myself to it. i have no real friends in my grade. i guess that okay. my best friend here is going to be leaving at the end of this semester. great. as the tears trinkle down my face i almost want to scream but hopefully God will lend me a hand and guide me through this.
as for friends in general. im seeing who my true friends are. i dont have any but katelyn & jeremy. and sometimes i think tehy're all i need. everyone else is dumb. they back stab & talk crap. they're fake and retarded. maybe im being rebellious on the subject but im being to despise some of the people i use to know. if i can even say i know them because now that i live here, im starting to see the real them and i hate them for being so fake.
i wana scream.
i want to say that today was a wonderful day so badly but when it really comes down to the truth, i can't bring myself to speak those words.
the one job i want isnt hiring. i had an abnormal longing to be in jeremys arms all day. i could taste coffee all the morning but my school wont let us drink anything unless its during lunch, and if you think for one second this day in time my school provides coffee, you're dead wrong.
i dont wana be here in clarksville anymore.
i dont belong.
and as much as i preach about it everyday, unfortunately nothing will ever change. i havent been this far down in the dumps in a while... and i suppose the lack of medication for four days could be the answer to my problem.
i think im going to go i/m an old friend and talk some things over because i havent exactly been a friend to her since she moved.
kbye.