Life is what you make of it, I guess...
What a fucken week...I don't even know where to start...I guess I could start by saying, I'm talking to Mal right now...yeah...that's kinda crazy. She started talking to me last Sunday nite, and came over and we talked until 2am before I kicked her out so I could go to bed, lol. I don't really know what's gunna happen...I have to talk to her about a lot of stuff before I can be all buddybuddy again...and I grew balls and i'm talking to her about it right now...I'm proud of myself...Carrie Abbott told me that I need to talk to her about it or it's jes gunna eat at me...and I know Crystal thinks I need to grow balls, haha...she always tells me that...I jes hate pissing ppl off...I jes want everyone to be happy, I guess...but, I need to remember that I need to be happy, too. So, yeah...that's about all with that...
Mikey Z's 21st birthday was Tuesday!!! I didn't have to work, which was gay cuz they mandated me to work Saturday, dumbfucks...anyways...So, he got home from work and I took him to the store and we bought some beer. Came back to the house and drank a few. I tried the Bacardi Silver Limon...i don't like malt beverages...they're too rough on my stomach. Yeah...Lewis and James came over...then James and I went to see Exorcist, awesome movie...even better since I was there with James :) I totally want him, haha. we jes went as friends, tho...which is cool, still...it's like the first time i've ever hung out with jes him, which was kinda weird...but, awesome, lol...yeah, so then...umm...nothing to exciting for the rest of the week. had the table from hell wednesday nite...NO TIP...fuckers...i hate ppl...then some old men came in at 8:32 to drink...fuckers...sat at the bar for like 20 minutes and i told them no more beer at 8:45, and then Toni told me I could go home, so i left...creepy fuckers came back in Saturday...ugh...anyways...Friday nite, we partied over here...well, suprisingly at Mikey's...but, that was awesome for me...cuz I had to go to bed at midnite...i was so fucken drunk! We did yaggerbombs! OMG...and I was drinking beer...I was definately feeling rough Saturday at work. I got to run the old rep, tho...which is the easiest rep to run. So, that was nice...a lot of sitting around, thank God...then I had to work at the Grayhorse...rough nite, too...then Mikey and I were gunna go to the Pub, but he decided he didn't want to because he's on probation and didn't want his PO to see him up there...so, he's like, Come out to Eric's! So, I went out there. I drank one beer and then called Eric out...but, I wasn't a bitch about it...I couldn't. That pissed Cecil off...he thinks that i should have been a bitch, but eric and i talked about it and we're cool now. It was between us, anyways..it wasn't really anyone else's business...so, yeah...then I didn't drink anymore cuz I was waiting for Crystal to call me and we were gunna go to a party in bronson or something...then the guys wanted to go for a walk, so I was getting ready to say that I was going home, and before I could even say anything, Cecil said, Carrie, you're not going home! So, I couldn't go home...lol...so, we went on our walk, it was hilarious. Eric fell down for no reason at all, lol...then got back up and said I SAVED THE BEER!!! it was so funny...then we were jes walking and he dropped it...they were all so drunk, i couldn't help but laugh my ass off at them all. We went back to E-Roc's and went to the neighbor's to hang out with them and my dad called me...He was in Jamaica all week, so I was like, HOW ARE YOU? Being all nice and happy and stuff and he jes starts yelling at me. It was so insane. He was mad that I didn't have my truck back and blahblahblah...I didn't realize that he needed his truck back BEFORE he got back from vacation...w/e...it was gay...So, I walked away and started talking to him, but he jes kept yelling. Sechler came up and tried to hug me and tell me it'd be okay while I was crying on the phone...i jes pushed him away and walked away...then dad hung up on me b/c he's mature like that...and like 2 seconds later crystal called me...it was crazy...she was like, Are you okay? And I jes started bawling and told her what was going on...she said she was outside and had a feeling that she should call me, so she did...idk...it was like, she jes knew...crazy...so, yeah...I walked up to the truck to talk to her so i didn't bother anyone else...then all the guys came up there and they kept talkign to me while i'm crying on the phone...lewis was poking at me and stuff...i jes walked away and got in the truck...so, he opened the door and started talking to me...i had to tell him like 5 times to leave me alone...i jes wanted to be alone...a few of them went on a walk and mike and cecil were in mike's car...after i got off the phone with crystal, i tried to call my dad back and calmly talk to him...but, he was so mad...he kept interrupting me and i told him to stop...he was like, you don't have to worry about me interrupting you b/c this conversation is over...and hung up on me again...so, i called her back and cried some more...ugh...it was a rough nite...and that was at like 1 am...he fucken called me at 1...he's lucky i wasn't drunk..i prolly would have jes gone off...ugh...i stayed calm, for the most part and only yelled a little bit...then, i got in mike's car with him and cecil and told them what happened...cecil was so mad that dad swore at me...he said that was one of the most disrespectful things a man could do was to swear at a woman...i think that if he could have, he would have gone and kicked my dad's ass that nite...that's why i love cecil...he told me that him, carol, and i think jean (idk) are getting a house/apt in Detroit and need a 4th roommate...so, idk...i'm thinking about that...maybe going up there one day to try to find a job...i don't think it'd be that hard for me to find one...and maybe moving away...i jes dont' want my dad to have anything else to hold over my head...but, i was so upset that nite, that i couldn't drive and they wouldn't let me anyways...i jes wanted to drive the fucken truck into a tree...not to hurt myself, but to hurt the truck, jes to piss dad off...so, they told me i had to stay there...so i did...i stayed up in eric's room...he was playing his Star Wars game, hah...i tried to go to sleep right away, but i couldn't...then derringer came up, so i talked to him for awhile when eric went downstairs...then eric came back and derringer left...it was funny...he was here the nite lewis saved me and told me that he thought we were gunna have sex b/c he didn't realize how close lewis and i were...i was like, eww...that'd be like having sex with my brother, haha...him and cecil...that'd jes be wrong...i mean, when i got out of the car and went in the house, cecil gave me a big hug and so did mike...both of them held on to me forever it seemed like...i love those guys...they're so awesome...so, anyways...after derringer left, i tried to sleep again, and was successful until eric's mom came in and yelled at him for his game being too loud...then i was up until like 4 am watching him play his video game...it was kinda fun...i drank a couple of beers with him and we jes hung out...i kinda have a crush on him, which is bad...i'm so bad...haha...i knew the guys would think something happened between us, but it didn't!! I swear...i didn't have sex with him...he let me borrow a teeshirt to wear to bed, i went to the bathroom to change...but, that's the only undressing that went on, lol...Sunday, dad was all nice to me and said he prolly shouldn't have yelled but he was pissed, blahblahblah...w/e...he was being an ass again tonite...i'm up still because i have to take him to work in 15 minutes...it's fucken gay...but, It's jes about time for me to take him...so i'm out...i'll finish my weekend stories later...peace*
Mikey Z's 21st birthday was Tuesday!!! I didn't have to work, which was gay cuz they mandated me to work Saturday, dumbfucks...anyways...So, he got home from work and I took him to the store and we bought some beer. Came back to the house and drank a few. I tried the Bacardi Silver Limon...i don't like malt beverages...they're too rough on my stomach. Yeah...Lewis and James came over...then James and I went to see Exorcist, awesome movie...even better since I was there with James :) I totally want him, haha. we jes went as friends, tho...which is cool, still...it's like the first time i've ever hung out with jes him, which was kinda weird...but, awesome, lol...yeah, so then...umm...nothing to exciting for the rest of the week. had the table from hell wednesday nite...NO TIP...fuckers...i hate ppl...then some old men came in at 8:32 to drink...fuckers...sat at the bar for like 20 minutes and i told them no more beer at 8:45, and then Toni told me I could go home, so i left...creepy fuckers came back in Saturday...ugh...anyways...Friday nite, we partied over here...well, suprisingly at Mikey's...but, that was awesome for me...cuz I had to go to bed at midnite...i was so fucken drunk! We did yaggerbombs! OMG...and I was drinking beer...I was definately feeling rough Saturday at work. I got to run the old rep, tho...which is the easiest rep to run. So, that was nice...a lot of sitting around, thank God...then I had to work at the Grayhorse...rough nite, too...then Mikey and I were gunna go to the Pub, but he decided he didn't want to because he's on probation and didn't want his PO to see him up there...so, he's like, Come out to Eric's! So, I went out there. I drank one beer and then called Eric out...but, I wasn't a bitch about it...I couldn't. That pissed Cecil off...he thinks that i should have been a bitch, but eric and i talked about it and we're cool now. It was between us, anyways..it wasn't really anyone else's business...so, yeah...then I didn't drink anymore cuz I was waiting for Crystal to call me and we were gunna go to a party in bronson or something...then the guys wanted to go for a walk, so I was getting ready to say that I was going home, and before I could even say anything, Cecil said, Carrie, you're not going home! So, I couldn't go home...lol...so, we went on our walk, it was hilarious. Eric fell down for no reason at all, lol...then got back up and said I SAVED THE BEER!!! it was so funny...then we were jes walking and he dropped it...they were all so drunk, i couldn't help but laugh my ass off at them all. We went back to E-Roc's and went to the neighbor's to hang out with them and my dad called me...He was in Jamaica all week, so I was like, HOW ARE YOU? Being all nice and happy and stuff and he jes starts yelling at me. It was so insane. He was mad that I didn't have my truck back and blahblahblah...I didn't realize that he needed his truck back BEFORE he got back from vacation...w/e...it was gay...So, I walked away and started talking to him, but he jes kept yelling. Sechler came up and tried to hug me and tell me it'd be okay while I was crying on the phone...i jes pushed him away and walked away...then dad hung up on me b/c he's mature like that...and like 2 seconds later crystal called me...it was crazy...she was like, Are you okay? And I jes started bawling and told her what was going on...she said she was outside and had a feeling that she should call me, so she did...idk...it was like, she jes knew...crazy...so, yeah...I walked up to the truck to talk to her so i didn't bother anyone else...then all the guys came up there and they kept talkign to me while i'm crying on the phone...lewis was poking at me and stuff...i jes walked away and got in the truck...so, he opened the door and started talking to me...i had to tell him like 5 times to leave me alone...i jes wanted to be alone...a few of them went on a walk and mike and cecil were in mike's car...after i got off the phone with crystal, i tried to call my dad back and calmly talk to him...but, he was so mad...he kept interrupting me and i told him to stop...he was like, you don't have to worry about me interrupting you b/c this conversation is over...and hung up on me again...so, i called her back and cried some more...ugh...it was a rough nite...and that was at like 1 am...he fucken called me at 1...he's lucky i wasn't drunk..i prolly would have jes gone off...ugh...i stayed calm, for the most part and only yelled a little bit...then, i got in mike's car with him and cecil and told them what happened...cecil was so mad that dad swore at me...he said that was one of the most disrespectful things a man could do was to swear at a woman...i think that if he could have, he would have gone and kicked my dad's ass that nite...that's why i love cecil...he told me that him, carol, and i think jean (idk) are getting a house/apt in Detroit and need a 4th roommate...so, idk...i'm thinking about that...maybe going up there one day to try to find a job...i don't think it'd be that hard for me to find one...and maybe moving away...i jes dont' want my dad to have anything else to hold over my head...but, i was so upset that nite, that i couldn't drive and they wouldn't let me anyways...i jes wanted to drive the fucken truck into a tree...not to hurt myself, but to hurt the truck, jes to piss dad off...so, they told me i had to stay there...so i did...i stayed up in eric's room...he was playing his Star Wars game, hah...i tried to go to sleep right away, but i couldn't...then derringer came up, so i talked to him for awhile when eric went downstairs...then eric came back and derringer left...it was funny...he was here the nite lewis saved me and told me that he thought we were gunna have sex b/c he didn't realize how close lewis and i were...i was like, eww...that'd be like having sex with my brother, haha...him and cecil...that'd jes be wrong...i mean, when i got out of the car and went in the house, cecil gave me a big hug and so did mike...both of them held on to me forever it seemed like...i love those guys...they're so awesome...so, anyways...after derringer left, i tried to sleep again, and was successful until eric's mom came in and yelled at him for his game being too loud...then i was up until like 4 am watching him play his video game...it was kinda fun...i drank a couple of beers with him and we jes hung out...i kinda have a crush on him, which is bad...i'm so bad...haha...i knew the guys would think something happened between us, but it didn't!! I swear...i didn't have sex with him...he let me borrow a teeshirt to wear to bed, i went to the bathroom to change...but, that's the only undressing that went on, lol...Sunday, dad was all nice to me and said he prolly shouldn't have yelled but he was pissed, blahblahblah...w/e...he was being an ass again tonite...i'm up still because i have to take him to work in 15 minutes...it's fucken gay...but, It's jes about time for me to take him...so i'm out...i'll finish my weekend stories later...peace*