Sep 29, 2009 09:49
I suck at school. I should be there right now. Oh well. I'll go in for the test on thursday and ace it or fail it and that'll help me decide whether to withdraw or not. I'm the assistant manager at Namco now. I pull down $34,000 a year when my friends in and out of school can't get jobs. So I'm through with paying to learn useless information. I'll finish up at some point I guess. IDK. But when I get $34G with health benefits and two weeks paid vacation after a year... what can I complain about?
So In my neverending personal battle with my love life I have come to an understanding. There are 3 girls in my life that I could see myself pursuing a valid relationship with. There is only one that I want. There is only one I think about on a daily basis, one I would move mountains for a chance to be with. And she is the least likely to reciprocate my feelings.
Its not so bad I guess. At least she wants to be friends right? The hard part is when she talks like she feels as I do.. then goes cold and I don't hear from her for a week or two.
I haven't had sex in 5 months. And I don't want to. I have no desire to be with anyone other than this one person I'm totally enthralled with. I actually like this as at this time last year I had slept with way too many girls in 2008. 5 girls in 08. 1 girl in 09. I guess that's the way its going to continue.
No girl is as funny, sweet, intoxicating, and beautiful in my eyes. I wish you would either tell me yes, or tell me no its not going to happen.