heres a journal entry ill actually remember posting
ok. katelyn. i like her. i don't want to. i can't trust her. i can. but i get vibes that she was only with me cuz i bought her things and i banged her good. but is that enough? she still could have been seeing adam or tony or whoever whenever she said she was drinking or staying in for work. i need to stop hitting on 16/17 year olds at work it makes me feel like a creep.
im about to take an hour cut at jets so i can help my cousin out at subway. hopefully their will be some babes there. all i think about is chicks. i need to just focus on having a good time and they will come. sometimes i get so anxious and paranoid. i feel like im being mind controlled. i can't stay off my computer or my phone, and i can't stop checking my facebook or instagram im straight addicted to that shit. i would delete it but its too convenient for keeping in touch with shows and promoting for isenblast. i should just stop posting and stop checking it all the time. i should get back into school. but for what? theres nothing i want to do. i want to move out of my house but i have no money. im getting fed up with shit right now. i just want a girl who isn't a filthy whore. i need to stop putting the vibe out there that i just want to bone, i need to find a girl i actually enjoy being around and the sex will come. maybe
i hate the idea of an internet personality. people judge me on shit. maybe i should quit drinking so much, man up, take risks, maybe even smoke a little more weed
im about to take an hour cut at jets so i can help my cousin out at subway. hopefully their will be some babes there. all i think about is chicks. i need to just focus on having a good time and they will come. sometimes i get so anxious and paranoid. i feel like im being mind controlled. i can't stay off my computer or my phone, and i can't stop checking my facebook or instagram im straight addicted to that shit. i would delete it but its too convenient for keeping in touch with shows and promoting for isenblast. i should just stop posting and stop checking it all the time. i should get back into school. but for what? theres nothing i want to do. i want to move out of my house but i have no money. im getting fed up with shit right now. i just want a girl who isn't a filthy whore. i need to stop putting the vibe out there that i just want to bone, i need to find a girl i actually enjoy being around and the sex will come. maybe
i hate the idea of an internet personality. people judge me on shit. maybe i should quit drinking so much, man up, take risks, maybe even smoke a little more weed