random update of venting
well i hooked up with my ex gf katelyn things were going good i was trying to win her back, shes seeing some other dude right now, i found out she was a dirty whore. i suggested an open relationship with her, which she agreed without hesitation, but i don't think i can handle it like i used to when we started seeing eachother 7 months ago. after so much time its hard to hold back emotions you have for someone. it would probably be a different story if i had someone else to fuck at the same time, it just gets to me that shes fucking other (multiple?) guys and i get to her if shes free. maybe i shouldn't have took for granted what i had when we decided to actually start dating. i treated her like shit and i hooked up with other girls while we were dating. at the time i just didn't think she was the right girl for me, i had too much of an ego, i came up with reasons why i didn't like her. after not seeing her for sometime i started to miss her than i realized how good i had it and it was too late... sort of. i mean im back to hooking up with her but its more of a mind fuck than anything. she knows i fucked up, and shes just fucking with me now. hahahahahahahahahahahaha she doesn't know how twisted i am nobody should fuck with me like this. i don't even like her its just cuz she was all i was fucking. she can be replaced ha whatever i got a crazy mind im about to peace out and go pussy hunting peace livejournal its been real