.. grab a hold so NO ONE can take you awayyyy<3 !!!
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thinking about you.. while missing you.<33 ]
LET ME JUST SAY, I HAD THE MOST AMAZING BIRTHDAY, IT WAS PERFECT, THE BEST DAY OF MY WHOLE LIFE, I GOT TO SEE MY OLD FAMILY.. AGAIN!<3 AND I GOT TO SPEND IT WITH ASHLEY AS WELL, AND ADAM. HE MADE ME SOMETHING THAT I LOVE<3
ok tuesday, school. then adam got us at school.. dropped us off at ashleys, we hungout in the basement, and listen to THE USED really loud, and we danced, and played darts, it was so much funnnn!! <33.. then we decited to put in the used dvd, so then we watched the, and we obsessed, then we were done after like 5ish, then we just hungout, till adam came and go us.. he got us, we went out hungout for a while, dont remember where but yeah.. wednesday, my 18th BIRTHDAY!!!<33 got up. went to school. mike had EVERYONE sing happy birthday to me on the bus.. longg story about that.. then school, so first period mike had everyone, basicly, that we saw in the halls say happy birthday to me, and ashley did as well, this went alllll day.. seriously, so yeah. D period, lizzy and ashley made me a birthday card, that almost made me cry, i love it very very much, thanks guys!!<33.. so school over. i stayed after for detention, i know blows. oh well. late bus. then adam got me at library. got ashley. headed to adams. then left there. headed to JOSH's house. OMG i miss them more than anything, more than anyone could ever miss anything. i cant even explain to you how much i miss them. so we hungout there.. talked to becky, and don :-) i was happy about that, i was shaking when i got there, i dont know why. then after we just chilled.. me and josh, went downstairs why everyone else stayed upstairs. i was so happy about that. we talked for a good 15 mins. about everything. to dating to cutting to missing eachother so fucking much!!!<3. he stop something for me. and i was so happy, cause i love that boy with all that i have. ok, so we said our goodbyes. me and josh hugged like 3 times<33. then we left. i rannn to the car, cause i was going to cry. which i did. then i tryed to stop. then on the way down came on, then i just poured out. then we got to the mall. then ash was crying, so i hugged her, and we just started crying wicked hard, so she started laughing so she wouldnt cry more. so we stopped, and went in the mall. go stuff. yay! dylan and dans present :-). go hair dye, and the used poster<3. left. went to bed. (slept at ashley). woke up. hungout. dyed my hair. took a shower, then adam came, went out to dinner with my dad, laurie, adam, and kristen, ha i found out when we got there, that ashley could have came. so yeah sara was kinda mad about that. PLAYED KENO :-) hehe! woot. then ate. surprise cake, and singing. then left. home. then bed<33. friday. school. then to ashleys house. watched ELF. hungout. then ryan came and got us for Ocean Skate, first went to get his drums and such at the church. then headed to ocean skate, which was soo fucking hot. i got like 16 tickets to win the signed skateboard. BUT NO THE FUCKERS HAD TO CHEAT, fuck i hate cheaters. anyways. got to see dan<3 & DYLAN<3. i was wayy excited about that<3. I HUNGOUT WITH MY OTHER LOVER KAYLA! i missed her!<3. well, was over. left. went to ashleys, adam came and got us. went to cumbys. then contempo?. left early cause we were tured? yeah. got to ashleys, went right to sleep. was very tired. woke up. hungout watch school of rock, yeah i love that movie, and ELF oh man there fucking awesome!!<333. adam worked til' 4 so he came and got us. went out to contempo. saw sarah & nicoleeeee, who i love very fuckingggg much<3333!!! saw dave, who i miss so much!!!!<333 joe was working :-), he told ashley he wanted her. HAHA! that was great! hungout. left. got to ashleys, went on computer, then i went and layed down, and watched my oldddd Backstreet Boy's all access tape that i let ashley borrow. mmmm i missed that. fell a sleep. ashley came in a later. woke me up. then fell back to sleep. morning, got up. ash was up. then hungout, then went downstairs. watch the GRINCH!!<333. good times ashley, i like to attack you!! hah! ended. hungout. ashley took a long nap, i sat on the floor and did my homework so i didnt have so much to do tonight, which i STILL have some, so yeah. tryed being quiet, so she didnt wake up, HAHAHA THAT WAS SOO FUNNYYY!!!<333 good timesss<3. ash got up. we chatted for a bit. then adam came, i went home. put up my useddd poster!!!<3. and called danielle, cause she needed someone to talk to and i told her i would be there for her. (hope i held daielle, welcome, anytime<3) hmm. adam came over, we had a little chat. then he just left 30 mins ago. now pictures that my love(josh) sent me.<333
wait.. something before that.
xbleedthes0rrowx: well i dont want to make you sad
xbleedthes0rrowx: i wouldnt want to do that to you
xbleedthes0rrowx: <33333333333
xbleedthes0rrowx: i miss you alot<3
xbleedthes0rrowx: i love you!<3
Pictures<33333 :
Me & Joshua<3, oh my god.. hes soo fucking cute i miss him so fucking much.<333
.. omg hes getting so tall :-). hes taller than me. i love you so much joshua<333
HEHE! me and joshua againnnn!!<3333 ahh i love ppictureeeee!!! dfjklsdfkljds!!!<33
this kid, is amazing, oh man, i love you, so effing much<33333
hehe, dork.. joshuaaaaa<333 (sorry i added so many of him, but yeah you'll get it, someday.)
Ashley, Jake, and I.. wow, jake is growing up so fast, i missed him so much<333 i love you kiddd!!
.. i figured, i'd add this one too, even though i dont like it, cause i look like im on crack, hah. well i like it cause ashleys in it, but thats about it<3333
.. i just realized there are none of jessica.. i miss you girly, i love you so muchhhh<33, dont ever think i forget you, or that i will, cause i DEFINITLY WONT<333!!
.. well joshua, i miss you so much, and i dont want ANYONE to take you away ever again, that hurts so much, more than anyone could ever imagine, i dont ever wanna lose you, not for one second kid, you mean absolutely EVERYTHING to me, and thats why im always here for you.. and i ALWAYS care about what you do. and i try to stopp you from doing them.. i seriously think, i love you more than ive ever loved anyone, some people dont understand but i dont care what anyone else thinks.. your amazing<333
.. i cant stop thinking about you. your always on my mind ever since, i saw you.<3JSC
thinking about you.. while missing you.<33 ]
LET ME JUST SAY, I HAD THE MOST AMAZING BIRTHDAY, IT WAS PERFECT, THE BEST DAY OF MY WHOLE LIFE, I GOT TO SEE MY OLD FAMILY.. AGAIN!<3 AND I GOT TO SPEND IT WITH ASHLEY AS WELL, AND ADAM. HE MADE ME SOMETHING THAT I LOVE<3
ok tuesday, school. then adam got us at school.. dropped us off at ashleys, we hungout in the basement, and listen to THE USED really loud, and we danced, and played darts, it was so much funnnn!! <33.. then we decited to put in the used dvd, so then we watched the, and we obsessed, then we were done after like 5ish, then we just hungout, till adam came and go us.. he got us, we went out hungout for a while, dont remember where but yeah.. wednesday, my 18th BIRTHDAY!!!<33 got up. went to school. mike had EVERYONE sing happy birthday to me on the bus.. longg story about that.. then school, so first period mike had everyone, basicly, that we saw in the halls say happy birthday to me, and ashley did as well, this went alllll day.. seriously, so yeah. D period, lizzy and ashley made me a birthday card, that almost made me cry, i love it very very much, thanks guys!!<33.. so school over. i stayed after for detention, i know blows. oh well. late bus. then adam got me at library. got ashley. headed to adams. then left there. headed to JOSH's house. OMG i miss them more than anything, more than anyone could ever miss anything. i cant even explain to you how much i miss them. so we hungout there.. talked to becky, and don :-) i was happy about that, i was shaking when i got there, i dont know why. then after we just chilled.. me and josh, went downstairs why everyone else stayed upstairs. i was so happy about that. we talked for a good 15 mins. about everything. to dating to cutting to missing eachother so fucking much!!!<3. he stop something for me. and i was so happy, cause i love that boy with all that i have. ok, so we said our goodbyes. me and josh hugged like 3 times<33. then we left. i rannn to the car, cause i was going to cry. which i did. then i tryed to stop. then on the way down came on, then i just poured out. then we got to the mall. then ash was crying, so i hugged her, and we just started crying wicked hard, so she started laughing so she wouldnt cry more. so we stopped, and went in the mall. go stuff. yay! dylan and dans present :-). go hair dye, and the used poster<3. left. went to bed. (slept at ashley). woke up. hungout. dyed my hair. took a shower, then adam came, went out to dinner with my dad, laurie, adam, and kristen, ha i found out when we got there, that ashley could have came. so yeah sara was kinda mad about that. PLAYED KENO :-) hehe! woot. then ate. surprise cake, and singing. then left. home. then bed<33. friday. school. then to ashleys house. watched ELF. hungout. then ryan came and got us for Ocean Skate, first went to get his drums and such at the church. then headed to ocean skate, which was soo fucking hot. i got like 16 tickets to win the signed skateboard. BUT NO THE FUCKERS HAD TO CHEAT, fuck i hate cheaters. anyways. got to see dan<3 & DYLAN<3. i was wayy excited about that<3. I HUNGOUT WITH MY OTHER LOVER KAYLA! i missed her!<3. well, was over. left. went to ashleys, adam came and got us. went to cumbys. then contempo?. left early cause we were tured? yeah. got to ashleys, went right to sleep. was very tired. woke up. hungout watch school of rock, yeah i love that movie, and ELF oh man there fucking awesome!!<333. adam worked til' 4 so he came and got us. went out to contempo. saw sarah & nicoleeeee, who i love very fuckingggg much<3333!!! saw dave, who i miss so much!!!!<333 joe was working :-), he told ashley he wanted her. HAHA! that was great! hungout. left. got to ashleys, went on computer, then i went and layed down, and watched my oldddd Backstreet Boy's all access tape that i let ashley borrow. mmmm i missed that. fell a sleep. ashley came in a later. woke me up. then fell back to sleep. morning, got up. ash was up. then hungout, then went downstairs. watch the GRINCH!!<333. good times ashley, i like to attack you!! hah! ended. hungout. ashley took a long nap, i sat on the floor and did my homework so i didnt have so much to do tonight, which i STILL have some, so yeah. tryed being quiet, so she didnt wake up, HAHAHA THAT WAS SOO FUNNYYY!!!<333 good timesss<3. ash got up. we chatted for a bit. then adam came, i went home. put up my useddd poster!!!<3. and called danielle, cause she needed someone to talk to and i told her i would be there for her. (hope i held daielle, welcome, anytime<3) hmm. adam came over, we had a little chat. then he just left 30 mins ago. now pictures that my love(josh) sent me.<333
wait.. something before that.
xbleedthes0rrowx: well i dont want to make you sad
xbleedthes0rrowx: i wouldnt want to do that to you
xbleedthes0rrowx: <33333333333
xbleedthes0rrowx: i miss you alot<3
xbleedthes0rrowx: i love you!<3
Pictures<33333 :
Me & Joshua<3, oh my god.. hes soo fucking cute i miss him so fucking much.<333
.. omg hes getting so tall :-). hes taller than me. i love you so much joshua<333
HEHE! me and joshua againnnn!!<3333 ahh i love ppictureeeee!!! dfjklsdfkljds!!!<33
this kid, is amazing, oh man, i love you, so effing much<33333
hehe, dork.. joshuaaaaa<333 (sorry i added so many of him, but yeah you'll get it, someday.)
Ashley, Jake, and I.. wow, jake is growing up so fast, i missed him so much<333 i love you kiddd!!
.. i figured, i'd add this one too, even though i dont like it, cause i look like im on crack, hah. well i like it cause ashleys in it, but thats about it<3333
.. i just realized there are none of jessica.. i miss you girly, i love you so muchhhh<33, dont ever think i forget you, or that i will, cause i DEFINITLY WONT<333!!
.. well joshua, i miss you so much, and i dont want ANYONE to take you away ever again, that hurts so much, more than anyone could ever imagine, i dont ever wanna lose you, not for one second kid, you mean absolutely EVERYTHING to me, and thats why im always here for you.. and i ALWAYS care about what you do. and i try to stopp you from doing them.. i seriously think, i love you more than ive ever loved anyone, some people dont understand but i dont care what anyone else thinks.. your amazing<333
.. i cant stop thinking about you. your always on my mind ever since, i saw you.<3JSC