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The tv is on.
I never watch tv
not even now.
It's on so that
I don't feel so
alone.
I wont be pathetic forever.
Issiaha said to ''just ask''
and I think, due to the discussion
at hand that he wants me to ask for
help.
I don't need help,
what help can anyone really
offer?
I am unsatisfied with My life-
I'm the only one who can fix that.
Yes I want to be able to be weak
sometimes,
but I know that wont help things
at all.
My brain is going numb.
No sleep, No caffiene.
My best friends are going
to go to an alt. school,
Things with my boyfriend
are in the air, I think.
I kept myself closed off
so that I could leave this place
without caring.
And now I've gotten attatched
and I'm the one being left
behind.
I'm done with the cycle.
This break Something
has to change.
for better or for worse
alls I can do it try.