sing me something soft sad and delicate.
not too long ago i had gotten to this emotional point where i didn't care anymore. i honestly didn't care what happened to me or what i did. i had nothing to live for if you will. no one to stop me or care. (call me a drama queen or overdramatic..but those were my feelings) now hearing someone with that mindset sounds as if they're bound to get hardcore into drugs or whatever. well..i'm not quite that stupid. but, stupid enough. i started drinking a lot more. more and more each time. i didn't care. not too long ago i did something stupid in result of my drinking. i lost someone so very important to me. and most importantly..respect in myself. that someone was one of the few (if not the only) who i thought was really there for me and cared for me. and once i lost them.. i had virtually no one. i'm realizing now that i'm always going to have myself. you can only count on yourself. trust in yourself. in ways you can't with others. none of this makes any sense i'm sure, but this is my way of saying i'm done with not caring and i'm done with drinking for the time being. i'm ready to change back into the girl i was not too long ago. <3