A few steps forward and a few steps backwards
so its been a few months, i would have written but kindle problems. i actually really liked my last pist entry. i think i was for sure right on some things. ive been learning a lot lately. one thing i keep comjng to is fhat i need to give myself a break. ive been through hell. i was right about making more time to have fun. ooh man there have been some good and genuine fun momenrs. some things in particular is that katie and i beat until dawn. i should rephrase that because we were totally hooked on it, we beat it. it was such a fun game. we have also been cycling a few shows, some fun / funny, and others are awesome horror. kingdom for example is so rad. japanese empires, zombies what more could you ask for. American horror story is way more rad than i remember, and were also loving ghat , and the challange!!!!! movies the main one ghat stood out to me was antrum, i loved it. its one of those movies i needed to see to restore my faith in horror. it was the right movie at the right time. otger fun things afe that ive been working from home. it just feels good to be here. i have an awesome movie room setup, a rad pool, girlfriend, kids, and tge list goes on. i have been seeing a psycholigist dr. singh and shes been awesome and a huge help. im taking medication for anxiety and to be honest i have mixed feelings about it. the only real downside is sleep can be shotty lately. ive just been enjoying the little things. ruby red squirt, bike rides thursday to pick up zinburger for lunch. i can think about katie vetting home and enjoying a vlass of ruby red squirt eith her and it just makes me happy!!! the only real steps backwars are probably just from my medication and really it comes down to sleep. aometimes its hard not to gwt frustratwd and have thoughts like "here we go again". like now for example its almost 2 am. why am i awake at all? its ok, ive been through a lot. overall im happy and not anxious or depressed and i have a few things i need to check out with my doctor. when i update this next my goal is to have seen tge doctor about thyroid, blood pressure, sleep apnea, and my current medication. for fun i want to add backin making music so hopefully i can say i have jammed.