1 year.

[xbonzi]

so its been 1 year since greg died and i still cant handle it. Just thinking of himmakes me cry and i wish i was home today so i could go to the cemetary to see him .scratch that i really wish he was still around i wish this had never happened. i shouldnt have to go to a cemetary to see him tho he should still be here. I want to lay down under the tree next to him and just cry and talk to him i miss him so much. i've been crying all morning basically and had the hardest time fallin asleep last night becasue i kept lookign at the clock thinking that a year ago he was still alive. i miss greg so much theres so much i want to tell him and so much fun that we used to have. i was hoping i'd fall asleep and wake up with this have never happening. i keep thinking back to the night he died and the day i found out and i remember so much and i remember the weird feeling and how i woke up at 2:12 in the mornign thinkiign somehtign was wrong and my stomach was in knots. in a way i think i knew then but i didnt kno what it was about. i remember hearing amanda's message on my phone without understanding a word she said. i remember it was right after my art honor society meeting and jared was there and shelby told me. god i hate htis i want greg back.

R.I.P. Greg...u'll always be my king in our royal flush. i love you so much. *13*