Couldn't be any more Depressed
I am so incredibly down right now... That I would be sobbing if there weren't a ton of people at my house (a ton = mom, john, aly, and shay) Why am I so extremely depressed you ask? Two reasons..... Numero uno... John brought my computer over tonight ^.^ WHOOO right? Yes I was EXCEPTIONALLY estatic.. TWAS AMAZING!!! WHOOOO! So I hook it up and everything.. Early John had been complaining how Kit (an employee of John's and friend of the family) had placed all my comp parts randomly in John's house and that John had to hunt for 20 minutes to put it all back together.. etc etc.... So I hook it up and turn it on.. Screen comes up.. Error could not read hard drive.. and I was like... >.< -.- 0.0... So I go tell John
John: *thinking* I know why it's saying that..
Me: *anxious* Yess????
John: Because I left the hard drive sitting next to it.
Me: 0.0 0.0 0.0.... *sniffle... walks away*
Yeah so JOY! right? Right then.. Reason numero dos..... I called Jared earlier... (For the record I would just like to state that unfortunately enough for me I have strong feelings for him I can't help myself etc etc.. I figure it'll always be like that.. So basically I like the boy) So I called him
Jared: Hello?
Me: Hi ^.^
Jared:.... I can't really talk right now..
Background Female Voice: You need to get off the phone.
Me: *thinking to self* 'What the fuck?!?'
Jared: I have company
Me: *pissed off* Who?
Jared: A girl..
Me: WHO!?
Jared: Tommi
Me: Oh =.=
Side Note: Jared likes Tommi.. Tommi likes Jared... -.- What more is there to say?
Jared: Can I call you back later?
Me: *stony voice* Sure..
Jared: K... Bye..
Me: *click*
Well it doesn't end there ladies and gentlemen.. Nope course not.. At that point I was only mildly peeved cause I wasn't really sure what was going on (not that it wasn't BLATANTLY obvious.. I'm delusional.. I LIKE my delusions...) Right so I get home and I eat dinner the whole computer thing happens.. I clean the kitchen up and take care of the dishes.. So at that point it was like 9pm.. I checked the caller ID.. Did I see Jared's number there? OF COURSE NOT (Cause gawd hates me apparently) Right so my thoughts are.. Either he's on the fucking phone with her RIGHT NOW.. Or he just didn't fuckin call me back (the bastard) Right so I pick up the fucking phone and call the wanker.
Phone: Ring ring FUCKING ring
Jared: Hello?
Me:.... Hi....
Jared: Hey ^.^
Me: -.- Are you still busy? *not to happy tone of voice*
Jared: Nope...
Me: Peachy.... So did you tie the knot yet?
Phone: Silence..........
Jared: Huh? Tie the knot?
Me: Yeah.. Are you and Tommi going out yet?
Jared: No..
Me: No?
Jared: No not yet.. But we're going to..
Me: Then why aren't you?
Jared: *guarded tone of voice* I don't know.. We just aren't..
Me: K...
:: More Silence::
Jared: Anyway.. I can't really talk right now though.. (Where have I heard THAT before?!? -__-)
Me: Why?!
Jared: Because I promised I'd call her..
Me: *COMPLETELY PISSED OFF NOW* You JUST saw her?!
Ok I'm going to try and sum this up instead of being EXTREMELY detailed because the lesbians are distracting.. Anyway jist of things.... Somehow we got it across that I was upset about him and Tommi but he had to go. I started to cry
Jared: Are you crying?
Me: *crying voice* No.. Bye.
Click... Wait for it.. waaait for it..
He calls back.. Right so we talked about it all I just told him that all I wanted was for him to be happy.. and its the gawd damn truth I care about him too fucking much and I let him know that... And he says he does... But I don't think he understands.. But its ok... So we just talked about the whole situation for a while the fact that he's completely confused about Tommi he likes her but he WAS saying that he doesnt want to be in a relationship etc etc.. We talked about the fact that he can't dissapear off the face of the earth from me just cause he has a girlfriend.. W/e... For a most part we worked things out and then he was like.. Well I really should go call her.. And i was just like... ok... Then we hung up with each other.. And you know what I've decided that we could have talked for hours more and I still wouldn't have felt better.. Because he has affections for Tommi...... And... not... me -.-... so.. Jealousy.. pain.. I wanted to cry after we hung up again... But I stopped myself.. cause shay and aly showed up.. So even though they're funny and so is mom and john.. On the inside i'm hurting.. And crying a lot.... So.. I'm going to go pretend to be happy some more... I hope everyone else is having a better night than me.. Love you all..
<3 Mere
John: *thinking* I know why it's saying that..
Me: *anxious* Yess????
John: Because I left the hard drive sitting next to it.
Me: 0.0 0.0 0.0.... *sniffle... walks away*
Yeah so JOY! right? Right then.. Reason numero dos..... I called Jared earlier... (For the record I would just like to state that unfortunately enough for me I have strong feelings for him I can't help myself etc etc.. I figure it'll always be like that.. So basically I like the boy) So I called him
Jared: Hello?
Me: Hi ^.^
Jared:.... I can't really talk right now..
Background Female Voice: You need to get off the phone.
Me: *thinking to self* 'What the fuck?!?'
Jared: I have company
Me: *pissed off* Who?
Jared: A girl..
Me: WHO!?
Jared: Tommi
Me: Oh =.=
Side Note: Jared likes Tommi.. Tommi likes Jared... -.- What more is there to say?
Jared: Can I call you back later?
Me: *stony voice* Sure..
Jared: K... Bye..
Me: *click*
Well it doesn't end there ladies and gentlemen.. Nope course not.. At that point I was only mildly peeved cause I wasn't really sure what was going on (not that it wasn't BLATANTLY obvious.. I'm delusional.. I LIKE my delusions...) Right so I get home and I eat dinner the whole computer thing happens.. I clean the kitchen up and take care of the dishes.. So at that point it was like 9pm.. I checked the caller ID.. Did I see Jared's number there? OF COURSE NOT (Cause gawd hates me apparently) Right so my thoughts are.. Either he's on the fucking phone with her RIGHT NOW.. Or he just didn't fuckin call me back (the bastard) Right so I pick up the fucking phone and call the wanker.
Phone: Ring ring FUCKING ring
Jared: Hello?
Me:.... Hi....
Jared: Hey ^.^
Me: -.- Are you still busy? *not to happy tone of voice*
Jared: Nope...
Me: Peachy.... So did you tie the knot yet?
Phone: Silence..........
Jared: Huh? Tie the knot?
Me: Yeah.. Are you and Tommi going out yet?
Jared: No..
Me: No?
Jared: No not yet.. But we're going to..
Me: Then why aren't you?
Jared: *guarded tone of voice* I don't know.. We just aren't..
Me: K...
:: More Silence::
Jared: Anyway.. I can't really talk right now though.. (Where have I heard THAT before?!? -__-)
Me: Why?!
Jared: Because I promised I'd call her..
Me: *COMPLETELY PISSED OFF NOW* You JUST saw her?!
Ok I'm going to try and sum this up instead of being EXTREMELY detailed because the lesbians are distracting.. Anyway jist of things.... Somehow we got it across that I was upset about him and Tommi but he had to go. I started to cry
Jared: Are you crying?
Me: *crying voice* No.. Bye.
Click... Wait for it.. waaait for it..
He calls back.. Right so we talked about it all I just told him that all I wanted was for him to be happy.. and its the gawd damn truth I care about him too fucking much and I let him know that... And he says he does... But I don't think he understands.. But its ok... So we just talked about the whole situation for a while the fact that he's completely confused about Tommi he likes her but he WAS saying that he doesnt want to be in a relationship etc etc.. We talked about the fact that he can't dissapear off the face of the earth from me just cause he has a girlfriend.. W/e... For a most part we worked things out and then he was like.. Well I really should go call her.. And i was just like... ok... Then we hung up with each other.. And you know what I've decided that we could have talked for hours more and I still wouldn't have felt better.. Because he has affections for Tommi...... And... not... me -.-... so.. Jealousy.. pain.. I wanted to cry after we hung up again... But I stopped myself.. cause shay and aly showed up.. So even though they're funny and so is mom and john.. On the inside i'm hurting.. And crying a lot.... So.. I'm going to go pretend to be happy some more... I hope everyone else is having a better night than me.. Love you all..
<3 Mere