Whines.
So yeah. I lost my baby on friday. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I started bleeding very little friday night but got scared and went to the hospy with my neighbor. Was there for about 6 hours before I found out. Got an ultrasound and there was no heart beat. I was so happy to have a baby on the way. It was the best thing that could happen to me. I wanted Jasons baby more than anything in the world. But now it is gone. Jason came to the hospitol we cried together and all that stuff you do when you are upset. But he was drunk and couldnt take the hospitol so he asked my permission to go home and sleep it off then come back. But I havent seen or heard from him since friday. He broke his promise to be there when I woke up from surgery. I miss him. I miss my baby Maverick. I keep thinking I am supposed to have a baby in my but I dont. They didnt give me any pain pills and that sucks. Cause I hurt. But I dont want to talk about this any more.
I skipped class this week. Didnt feel like it. Though now I fee like it was a mistake. I need to get out of the house and I have no where to go. I have only talked to Marcus, none of my other friends have called me. That sucks.
I need Jason but I am scared to call him or to go see hime. I have tried to write him about 4 emails but I always end up unsending them. I miss him so bad. I need to get drunk or fucked up. I just need to get out of this house.
I skipped class this week. Didnt feel like it. Though now I fee like it was a mistake. I need to get out of the house and I have no where to go. I have only talked to Marcus, none of my other friends have called me. That sucks.
I need Jason but I am scared to call him or to go see hime. I have tried to write him about 4 emails but I always end up unsending them. I miss him so bad. I need to get drunk or fucked up. I just need to get out of this house.