Boobies.
Still in school. It is okay. Have high 90's in both. Its all pretty easy. The teachers are dumb, and most the time I am asking myself "why am I here"? The school hasnt actually told me how many classes/hours I have to take before I can transfer so it goes off into a lost cause in my head. Pitty pitty.
Been feeling shitty lately. I got the job at parkers. Went in on my second day and they had be getting on my knees and lifting boxes that were like 50 or more pounds stacked on one another. I couldnt do it. I couldnt do the whole damn job. Its way too fast paced in there. I felt like such a dumb ass failure. Of course I cant tell anyone that the job didnt work out. I just have to find another one this week that I have no doubts on whether or not I can do it. Like delivering or the airport job.
I havent seen or heard from jason still. Snce the last appointment which was the end of last month. And that is pretty shitty. If he wants to be apart of it then he needs to make a effort. I am not going to call him to remind him of the other appointments. He can call me. If not thats his fault.
My mom has been hastling me to get back on my meds but I refuse. I have been depressed but thats normal isnt it? I can deal with it. I cant be a wimp all my life. I cant run to pills when life gets tough. Ive just been sad thinking I am not really ready for this baby. It is insane but I have to grow up. Even if I have to do iton my own.
I miss everyone.
O an I got my car back.
Marcus went to Kentucky to go to some school for a week.
I miss him so much. He better not have lied to me and actually went to Iraq. If that is true I will kick his ass!!!
Been feeling shitty lately. I got the job at parkers. Went in on my second day and they had be getting on my knees and lifting boxes that were like 50 or more pounds stacked on one another. I couldnt do it. I couldnt do the whole damn job. Its way too fast paced in there. I felt like such a dumb ass failure. Of course I cant tell anyone that the job didnt work out. I just have to find another one this week that I have no doubts on whether or not I can do it. Like delivering or the airport job.
I havent seen or heard from jason still. Snce the last appointment which was the end of last month. And that is pretty shitty. If he wants to be apart of it then he needs to make a effort. I am not going to call him to remind him of the other appointments. He can call me. If not thats his fault.
My mom has been hastling me to get back on my meds but I refuse. I have been depressed but thats normal isnt it? I can deal with it. I cant be a wimp all my life. I cant run to pills when life gets tough. Ive just been sad thinking I am not really ready for this baby. It is insane but I have to grow up. Even if I have to do iton my own.
I miss everyone.
O an I got my car back.
Marcus went to Kentucky to go to some school for a week.
I miss him so much. He better not have lied to me and actually went to Iraq. If that is true I will kick his ass!!!