Update
On a different note I'm caught up on bills now and I am getting ahead, the job actually is good. On certain days.... and for the other days I'm trying my hardest to figure out what life is trying to tell me and how to grow from it, to better myself as a person.. as a beautiful individual. For the most part life is good. There are a few shit situations but what would life be with out SOME shituations..... Stress in the relationship. Not because of the person but because of work and schedules. Things were great for both of us hourly... but HE was miserable with the co-workers. Dont know the outcome of that because it is extremely recent but with this new change I'll probably be seeing less of him and sleeping alone. Gotta pay bills, keep moving forward and keeping an eye out for open doors or window's to possibly jump out of, if things get too bad. Kidding of course. Anyways. I'm still around, I dont do much. I find myself on youtube and facebook most of the time these days.