I'm so whiney.
So have you ever been standing next to the most beautiful girl in the world, looked into her eyes and saw her looking back and realized... there's no chance in hell? I was faced with that tonight. Holding her hand, laughing like good friends... unforunatly I had to put up a mask to make it seem like it didn't mean the world to me... somehow I think she knew. Watching her fall asleep and leaving without a "Goodbye, darling. Until we meet again." makes me feel pretty bad. I suppose I'm lucky enough to have been so close to her this evening, but sometimes I just want a little more. Maybe I'm greedy. Maybe I'm lonely. Maybe I'm just losing my mind from being surrounded by these girls that seem like they're interested but really aren't... maybe it's all in my head. At least I have my dudes.
But cuddling with dudes is only okay sometimes.
But cuddling with dudes is only okay sometimes.