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so here i am.
well i'm not getting divorced. thank gosh we decided to work it out. i mean if it doesn't work its okay i realized i will be okay. i will do everything i can to raise dottie and i have a very supportive family and friends.
but, yea steven came down on saturday and we had a really really good weekend. like we are kind of just dating again. like finding all the reasons we fell in love with eachother in the first place. i just know that this feeling won't last and there will be hard times and awkward times. i mean when someone is gone 15 months its going to be awkward and uncomfortable and your going to feel like strangers. i know that feeling is inevitable. but, i just want this to work and i just want us to be in love and to enjoy being around eachother. i mean it sucks being married but, feeling single. and being a single parent when you know you shouldn't have to be. but, that is the sacrafice we make. and i have to remeber we both agreed for his to stay in the service.
things are looking up though. we had a great weekend we didn't fight not once. dottie totally remebered him at the airport from fifty feet away she saw him obn the escalator and pointed and said dada. i know it made him feel good.
i just told steven yea, its cool we are starting over and dating but, i said but, i'm your wife and eventually were going to have to act married again and thing are not always going to be like this and in those moments is where you can show me you love me. by not giving up.
well yea so anyways thats all. i have hope as of right now.
well i'm not getting divorced. thank gosh we decided to work it out. i mean if it doesn't work its okay i realized i will be okay. i will do everything i can to raise dottie and i have a very supportive family and friends.
but, yea steven came down on saturday and we had a really really good weekend. like we are kind of just dating again. like finding all the reasons we fell in love with eachother in the first place. i just know that this feeling won't last and there will be hard times and awkward times. i mean when someone is gone 15 months its going to be awkward and uncomfortable and your going to feel like strangers. i know that feeling is inevitable. but, i just want this to work and i just want us to be in love and to enjoy being around eachother. i mean it sucks being married but, feeling single. and being a single parent when you know you shouldn't have to be. but, that is the sacrafice we make. and i have to remeber we both agreed for his to stay in the service.
things are looking up though. we had a great weekend we didn't fight not once. dottie totally remebered him at the airport from fifty feet away she saw him obn the escalator and pointed and said dada. i know it made him feel good.
i just told steven yea, its cool we are starting over and dating but, i said but, i'm your wife and eventually were going to have to act married again and thing are not always going to be like this and in those moments is where you can show me you love me. by not giving up.
well yea so anyways thats all. i have hope as of right now.