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I feel absolutely horrible,today Jess IMed me saying how Brandon is moving to Mexico,forever.And he said to tell me bye...and she thinks it's becuase he's been so upset about me lately cuase here's what happened...a few days ago he says "I don't think me and you are gonna work out" and is bitching about how he never gets to see me,and he says "I'm sorry and I don't want to hurt you." Then I say "I'm not hurt,are you?" and he said "Yes,alot."And we just pretty much stopped talking,I told him I just wasn't ready for a commitment,I don't have enough time for that,plus,I can't really handle a boyfriend right now with the other 50,000 guys,it changes like every 2 weeks I swear,this year I've gone through,lets see, Kris,Brian,Patrick(which he stopped everything with me,not me doing it to him),Brandon,Nick(who not many people know about,and I think that's it.But yeah,Brandon IMed me when I was at school today and I didn't recieve his first IM so I didn't know what he said and I said "I can't talk right now,in school." and he goes "Alright,well have a nice life,it was nice knowing you." And I wasn't sure what that meant so I told him sorry I couldn't talk when I got home and he said it's cool and nothing about him moving to Mexico,then he puts an away message up with all this stuff about moving there.And Jess IMs me telling me he's moving there.God,I am so sick of all this drama and guys being whinny little bitches,sorry but it's true at times,I mean my guy friends are cool and I can take their girl problems and little rants,but I can't take the ones from the guys that like me cuase,they're just so annoying and frustrating,and not to mention,another thing is I've been so frustrated with so many things lately.I have lost my permit,STILL need to make up 3 driver's ed tests,have to clean my room and put everything back in it after we paint and have new carpet installed this weekend,have to clean for thanksgiving cuase guess what??Oh joy,the whole family is coming!And I am supposed to help out my grandpa with my grandma this sunday which I don't mind cuase I love them and want to spend time with them before something happens,which I hope nothing will,but grandma keeps getting worse and worse. Sunday I went over there and I go in and she says "Shannon,what's with the dissapearring act?" and my mom and I just go "What are you talking about?" and my mom goes "Nicole couldn't come cuase she was sick,but Shannon's right here." and my grandma just responds with "Oh haha." like nothing happened,it's getting pretty bad,which is just another thing to stress about,then all this school work,and uhg it's just so frustrating with all of this going on.It makes me want to go curl up in a ball in my room and never come out,but I can't even do that right now,cuase everything was taken out of my room so it can be re-done.Oh well hopefully things will get better soon.