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Ah I think last night I realized how much I really do look up to my cousin Nicole,she is just too amazing and awesome and cool and such a good impression on me,and I miss her.With my friends they just get me in fucking tourble getting me home at 4am and telling me we need to stay at my house and we wake up my mom and Raychel is fucking typing on the computer,and it's loud as fuck,and Jessica was trashed and asleep.It kinda just pissed me off and made me see how bad of an impression they are on me,they used to be great,but then they decide to stay at this guys house and I have to get them to leave and start driving for Jessica cuase she was so trashed and now I have a fucking curfue at 12 but that's kinda my fualt for not calling my mom,but we could have stayed at Raychel's even though she says her parents would be pissed,but they dont know the curfue.Her parents don't care about like anything she does.Mine do on the other hand.Now I may not be able to go to the asl show next weekend with them and I kinda don't care,but then again I do and I wanted to see a bunch of friends there,and I might be able to go cuase my mom felt really bad for me today cuase I was so stressed out with just everything and she bought me clothes but I hate her having to buy me all this stuff,I feel bad now and I was telling her how I needed hfsmas nutcracker tickets for me and Nicole but she kinda ignored it,I reallllllyyy miss Nicole and all of our fun times,fuck my friends right now,I love them,but Nicole is like my fucking sister and is ALWAYS there for me and always has been.
I hope to god I can get tickets next weekend and they don't sell out cuase I really wanna go with her,maybe I can do the "Mom,I am so frustrated with all this shit" thing again and then feel guilty but I don't care anymore I just miss my fucking Nicole!And all of our good times good times.Man,I really wanna go to a bright eyes show,if they come anytime soon and maybe I'll get Nicole to go with me if she wants to or likes them.I don't really care that much about meeting the bands,cuase it's not like I'm gonna marry then or anything like I used to think with my teenie bopper mind haha and shows don't always entertain me any more unless the band plays a good set and is nice to the crowd.Yeah,that's it.The end of my essay.
I hope to god I can get tickets next weekend and they don't sell out cuase I really wanna go with her,maybe I can do the "Mom,I am so frustrated with all this shit" thing again and then feel guilty but I don't care anymore I just miss my fucking Nicole!And all of our good times good times.Man,I really wanna go to a bright eyes show,if they come anytime soon and maybe I'll get Nicole to go with me if she wants to or likes them.I don't really care that much about meeting the bands,cuase it's not like I'm gonna marry then or anything like I used to think with my teenie bopper mind haha and shows don't always entertain me any more unless the band plays a good set and is nice to the crowd.Yeah,that's it.The end of my essay.