Not the landing I expected.

[xbeltanis]

Thanks giving weekend was the last weekend we needed to give to someone else. I was expecting to feel relieved and happy that for the next month there is not one single obligation on our calendar, and I do a little bit. But mostly I am sick (cold and then sinus infection) and kinda depressed. I honestly think that one weekend was one weekend to much. I have been in a sour/sad mood for 2 weeks now. Granted, I am usually rather mean when I am sick, but not depressed. Its like nothing has color. I hate that. School is winding down for the semester too, and even though it has been an easy semester, I am realizing I didn't do my best either. That makes me mad at myself.

I know Shaun is tired too. He has been having a hard time fighting my sick germs off... which is abnormal for him. He has made lots of comments about not wanting another house project for a good long time... which normally he doesn't really care and just goes with the flow of fixing what ever breaks when ever it breaks. He asks every day if anything is planned and when I say no he gets really relieved and then nervous that something will still end up taking up the time... and he is not the nervous type.

So even though the decent into our time of rest as a family was smooth ( just read my post from a month ago ), the landing was terrible. Its like at the very last minute the wheels of the plane hit a bunch of pot holes and now I am all bruised and frazzled.