(no subject)
to be perfectally honest i cant pretend that i dont think about him alot. or that i dont love him at all. sure the person he has become isnt anything i would be with now. or there is no excuse for what he did. but regsrdless, the point being is that when you see the love scenes in the movies i think about him. but i know that it wont be, and its not that i want it to be, its just so hard to think anyone will fill me that much. But then i look at what i have and how happy all the time and how i havnt cried since the end, and i havnt yelled since the end. Kris makes me happy.