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how about some lyrics of the day for a change?
"I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?
Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever."
- ohio is for lovers: hawthorne heights
"I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.
Leave it up to me. to burden you again.
This ones not your fault. Please forgive me.
Leave it up to me. to burden you again.
This ones not your fault. so forget, so forget, so forget me.
Don't think back, don't think back of me at all.
just let me go."
-car underwater: armor for sleep
♥ (yes those lyrics have a hidden meaning for me behind them.) ♥
i havent updated in a while because there are too many things going through my mind at the moment. things that i cant put down for everyone to read. so i just left it to myself... only a few know what is going on. but the gist of it all, is that nick and i are taking a break. hard to believe for most people. ray told me that he couldnt believe it... and that we were like a perfect couple and all this shit.
i went to jenns house today to get my mind off things and to just talk to her because she is the best. hah! we had a grand ol' time. he he he he... and we started writing in some inside jokes of ours on her livejournal. we watched an old "home video" (i am not going to say what this home video is about... we will let your mind wander ha ha ha ha... ) and then we added to the old home video and decided we were going to update it every 1 year and three months. lol... oh jeez. we had a good time. and i definetly needed that.
after jenns i went home picked up my brothers and sat around until my mother got home. she called when she was like two minutes away and was like hey get all of jakes tball stuff together... and i have a surprise for you. and i asked is it a good surprise? and she was like oh, yeah. so i was super excited. then told myself not to be, because whenever she says that she comes home with something really gay. lol.... like last time she can back with this slutty cat woman halloween costume. i mean what the hell? lol... oh well. i mean its the thought that counts... right? so yeah, she pulled in and jake was ready and then she came up to me before i could even ask what the surprise was and she asked "hey do you want a car?" and i just dropped my jaw in awe and was like...no fucking way! and i was like ummm, yeah! ha ha... so she was like aunt marias old one? and i was like YES! i love my aunt marias old car. it is awesome. i mean it is not a 'cool' car but it is to me. it is an old black saturn with those seat belts when you close the door the go down and when you open the door they go up. i hope it has a good speaker system. thats all i really care about. lol... i am so excited. so today didnt turn out so bad.
then i went to rays to hang out a bit. that was alright. he played guitar i downloaded him some music. we talked... and it was ok. and then i went home because he needed to help his mom and didnt want me to be bored. so i was like ok, ill go home and if you want me to come back just call or something. so he just called and asked if i wanted to go to chuck E cheese with him and his really cute little brother. but i turned him down because i am sooo tired. i dont know if i will be able to walk around all over chuk E cheese and smell the pizza and not get any. lol... that would be quite a big dissappointment. plus i need to save my money for a new guitar. so i dont think spending it at chuck E cheese would be the best idea for saving. hah...
well that is all i have to bore you with today.
katlan