best friends means i pulled the trigger, best friends mean you get what you deserve..
i havent been the happiest girl lately im not gonna lie. i may hide it well in person but im really upset about a certain situation that has been just getting worse and worse by the days. ive basically lost one of my best friends. and i know you probably dont believe me but im really 'heartbroken' if you will over the whole thing. we went from hanging out everyday and being so close to this mess where we barely speak to each other anymore, and when we do all we do is fight. and i hate it. i hate it so much. more than youll ever know. i never thought someone could have such an effect on me when weve only started becoming really close a few months ago. i miss you. i miss talking to you online hours on end about anything and everything, i miss you always coming over and playing ping pong and going nuts when youd lose, i miss just sitting in my car talking, randomly driving around, getting ices, playing frisbee, i even miss when you always used to make fun of my 'cankles'. i know i hurt you, and im sorry for that, im sorry that i cant make up my mind and that i never know what i want, im so sorry, i dont do these things with that intention, i never would. i know ive told you that but i really am and i hate the fact that everything has had to come to this. i was looking at what you wrote in my yearbook before.. "i know its gonna be hard leaving for college, but i promise you ill be the friend you keep from high school".. i can only hope and pray that you hold true to that, because i dont know what ill do without you. youre truely one of the best people i know. and i just wanted to tell you that so you knew...well i guess well just see what happens from here i guess, right?
ive been doing this survey whenever i had the chance and finish it today so here
read it if you wanna
(1) what is ur name? Nicole Anne Meo
(2) Are you happy with it? love my first and last name.. middle name is terrible but whatev
(3) Are you named after anyone? nope.. my name was supposed to be tara nicole but my aunts dogs name was tara so they dropped that part lol
(4) Where were you born? north shore university hospital in manhassett
(5) Your screenname: xMy Chaos Theory
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? nah im not into that
(7) Then who would you name your children after? i wouldnt name my kids after anyone.. it would be solely because i liked the name
(8) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would have your name been? robert
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? kasey
(10) Are here any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? me-o
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? flippin' no way!
BASICS
(12) Your gender: female
(13) Straight/gay/bi? straight
(16) Your birthdate: o2.11 1987
(17) Your age: 18
(18) Age you act: probably 5.
(19) Age you wish you were: im good with this age
(20) Your height: 5'3 or 4
(21) The color of your eyes: brown
(22) Happy with it: yea
(23) The color of your hair: light brown
(24) Happy with it? yea i love the color of my hair.. haha
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? lefty.. but i do a bunch of things with my right
(26) Your living arrangement? with the parentals
(27) Your family: mom&dad&roxanneface
(28) Have any pets? yeap roxaaannne
(29) What's your job? eating.
(30) Piercings? yeap 10 of them.. prob gonna get one more to make it 11 cause thats my favorite number and im a dork like that.
(31) Tattoos? noo
(35) Do you speak another language? whatever i remember from 7-10th grade spanish
(36) Do you have a webpage? livejournal?
(37) Have a favorite quote? i couldnt pick just one
(38) Do you live in the moment? id say so
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? usually
(40) Do you have any secrets? not really everythings pretty much on the table
(41) Do you hate yourself? nah
(42) Do you like your handwriting? i like my uppercase handwriting.. lowercase is probably illegible
(43) Do you have any bad habits? yeapp.. i have an issue with not calling people back a lot when i say i will, dont know why .. dont do it intentionally or anything but i do it.. i should probably try to stop that
(46) What's your biggest fear? at the moment its definitely the whole college thing
(47) Can you sing? prob not.. but i do it anyway =)
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? nahh
(49) Are you a loner? yes and no at the same time
51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? absolutely... cmon now! lol
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? think im more passive.. but i can be aggressive depends on the situation
(55) Have you got a journal? livejournal
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? be more assertive
(59) How do you vent? blast music and sing to it.. take walks
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? yea probably
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? nah
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? for the most part yea
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? good question
(64) What do you like the most about your body? my hair i guess
(65) And least? legs
(66) Do you think you are good looking? no but i dont think im ugly either
(67) Are you confident? sometimes, sometimes not
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke? noo
(72) Do you do drugs? very rarely
(73) Read the newspaper? not usually
(75) Go to church? noope
(76) Talk to strangers? sometimes
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? no
(78) Take walks in the rain? yea i love that
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? yea
(80) Do you drive? yes
(81) Like to drive fast? sometimes
WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice? not really
(83) Hurt yourself? no
(84) Been out of the country? canadaa
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? yea
(86) Said something you didnt mean? im sure i have
(87) Couldnt find the words to say how you really felt? def
(88) Been in love? ha me? no.
(91) Had a medical emergency? nope
(92) Had a surgery? no
(93) Ran away from home? nope
(98) Been on stage? yea in like 4th grade
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? uhm.. no.
(100) Slept outdoors? yea
(101) Thought about suicide? no way
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? of course
(103) If yes, what is your record? i dunno between 24-48 hours id say
(104) Gone one day without food? not a whole 24 hours
(105) Talked on the phone all night? nope.. im not that into the phone to be honest
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yea
(107) Slept all day? yea
(108) Killed someone? yea prob not
(109) Made out with a stranger? nope
(110) Had sex with a stranger? no
(111) Thought you're going crazy? i probably am
(114) Been betrayed? i dont really think so
(115) Had a dream that came true? dont think so
(116) Broken the law? yea
(117) Met a famous person? yea
(118) Have you ever killed an animal on accident? noope
(121) On purpose? bugs?
(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? yea
(146) Stolen anything? yes
(147) Been on radio/tv? no
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? not exactly but i guess so
(152) Bungee jumped? nope.. i wanna though
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets? yea
(167) Miracles? sure
(168) Astrology? not in like predicting the future.. but with like character profiles and compatability yea
(169) Magic? no
(172) Santa? duh!
(174) Luck? yea
(175) Love at first sight? no way.. stupidest thing ever
(177) Witches? people think they are
(178) Easter bunny? aww
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yea why not?
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? thatd be pretty sick
(181) Do you wish on stars? im sure i have before
AMIGOS
(188) Who is your best friend? i wouldnt say i have just one
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? kasey&christine
(191) Your favorite inside joke? just one?.. i couldnt pick
(192) Thing you're picked on most about? my dumb comments
(193) Who's your longest known friend? chris
(194) Newest? caitlin maybe?
(195) Shyest? nick
(196) Funniest? sean gets a little nuts sometimes
(197) Sweetest? caitlins pretty nice
(198) Closest? kasey
(199) Weirdest? sean duh.
(200) Smartest? everyones pretty smart
(201) Ditziest? probably kasey
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? lindsay and phil.
(203) Last person you talked to online? chrissy.. were going to the beeach!
(204) Who do you talk to most online? usually phil but not lately
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? not really much of a phone person to be honest with you
(206) Who do you trust most? kasey
(207) Who listens to your problems? i tell kasey&christine pretty much everything
(208) Who do you fight most with? christine and i get into stupid fights over dumb things sometimes.. not real fights just like we get annoyed at each other lol
(209) Who's the nicest? well it used to be kasey.. but she turned into a bitch, so not anymore.. haha
(210) Who's the most outgoing? sean
(212) Who's on your shit-list? hmm theres a feww
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? yea
(215) Do you always feel understood? no
(216) Who's the loudest friend? prob lisa
(217) Do you trust others easily? id say so
(220) Do your friends know you? yea
OPPOSITE SEX
(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? no
(225) Do you consider love a mistake? i wouldnt know.. but id say no
(226) Height? taller than me
(227) Turn-on? awesome hair.. those freckly/beauty mark things i laav them..smelling good
(228) Turn-off? i guess the opposite of turn ons ? lol i dunno cant think right now
(229) Best hair/eye color? blonde/blue
(231) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? depends on who it was to be honest with you.. if it was some creepy asian man id be a little more than freaked out.. lol but id mostly feel flattered if it were anyone else
(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? def knowing them
(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? no
(236) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? probably not
(237) Best type of clothing style? doesnt really matter.. i guess like american eagle kinda shirts though if i hadda pick
(238) Weight? anywhere from skinny-average
(247) What's the last present someone gave you? i dunno
(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? look and smile? lol
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(279) That haunted you? uhh i really couldnt tell you
(280) You wanted to kill? ha ha ha
(281) That you laughed at? lisa "i got hit in the chest with an apple, that about sums up my night" lol
(282) That laughed at you? sean for spilling the soda on my foot lol
(284) You went shopping with? just went with lisa&alyssa today
(285) That broke your heart? maybe when someone said they hated me last night..
(288) To make you cry? eh lets not talk about that.
(289) To brighten up your day? my friends do that everyday
(290) That you thought about? fdgadfgda
(292) You talked to on the phone? dont really talk on the phone.. last person i talked to on it was kasey i think
(293) You talked to through IM/ICQ? kasey
(294) You saw? my cousin sean
RIGHT THIS MOMENT...
(340) What are you wearing right now? jeans& movielife tshirt
(341) Body-part you're touching right now? my lip
(342) What are you worried about right now? ughh
(344) What's on your mousepad? dell logo
(345) Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling? tired upset headachey .. thats about it
(346) Are you bored? not really
(347) Are you tired? yea
(348) Are you talking to anyone online? not at the moment
(349) Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no
(350) Are you lonely or content? lonely
(351) Are you listening to music? yes i always am
(352) Are you happy you're finally done? whatev
a few pics from the past week or so..
apparently this is the only pic i have from sams that night lol..
sup kandyce?
amy ash and cara
imma eat you!
peter cara caitlinshands jen
seannny
way to take a pic when were not looking
chrissy you probably didnt need a wetsuit in that bathwater =)
cara
cara&ash
im guessing i missed that shot? lol
schenoo
phil
sean
sam&cara
dont worry lisa well get em next time!haha
jay&sean
seans
cait hates pictures.. but dont worry i have ones of her waha!
cara what are you doing?
me&cara
lucia&jackie
cousin(luke)&me
me&sean(another cousin)
lisa&myself
we lavvv sloppy! lol
uhm? who took this?
yea lets not light the deck on fire boys
sammie&lala
kasey&christine
looking at fireworks..maybe?
chrissy&matt
the fries were good.
circle pong.. probably our new favorite game!
doot doot
sammmmie&caitlin
sakNstein
wow someones face is redd.. yea chris i pretty much killed you in circle pong lol your welcome seanny ;)
ive been doing this survey whenever i had the chance and finish it today so here
read it if you wanna
(1) what is ur name? Nicole Anne Meo
(2) Are you happy with it? love my first and last name.. middle name is terrible but whatev
(3) Are you named after anyone? nope.. my name was supposed to be tara nicole but my aunts dogs name was tara so they dropped that part lol
(4) Where were you born? north shore university hospital in manhassett
(5) Your screenname: xMy Chaos Theory
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? nah im not into that
(7) Then who would you name your children after? i wouldnt name my kids after anyone.. it would be solely because i liked the name
(8) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would have your name been? robert
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? kasey
(10) Are here any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? me-o
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? flippin' no way!
BASICS
(12) Your gender: female
(13) Straight/gay/bi? straight
(16) Your birthdate: o2.11 1987
(17) Your age: 18
(18) Age you act: probably 5.
(19) Age you wish you were: im good with this age
(20) Your height: 5'3 or 4
(21) The color of your eyes: brown
(22) Happy with it: yea
(23) The color of your hair: light brown
(24) Happy with it? yea i love the color of my hair.. haha
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? lefty.. but i do a bunch of things with my right
(26) Your living arrangement? with the parentals
(27) Your family: mom&dad&roxanneface
(28) Have any pets? yeap roxaaannne
(29) What's your job? eating.
(30) Piercings? yeap 10 of them.. prob gonna get one more to make it 11 cause thats my favorite number and im a dork like that.
(31) Tattoos? noo
(35) Do you speak another language? whatever i remember from 7-10th grade spanish
(36) Do you have a webpage? livejournal?
(37) Have a favorite quote? i couldnt pick just one
(38) Do you live in the moment? id say so
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? usually
(40) Do you have any secrets? not really everythings pretty much on the table
(41) Do you hate yourself? nah
(42) Do you like your handwriting? i like my uppercase handwriting.. lowercase is probably illegible
(43) Do you have any bad habits? yeapp.. i have an issue with not calling people back a lot when i say i will, dont know why .. dont do it intentionally or anything but i do it.. i should probably try to stop that
(46) What's your biggest fear? at the moment its definitely the whole college thing
(47) Can you sing? prob not.. but i do it anyway =)
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? nahh
(49) Are you a loner? yes and no at the same time
51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? absolutely... cmon now! lol
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? think im more passive.. but i can be aggressive depends on the situation
(55) Have you got a journal? livejournal
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? be more assertive
(59) How do you vent? blast music and sing to it.. take walks
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? yea probably
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? nah
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? for the most part yea
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? good question
(64) What do you like the most about your body? my hair i guess
(65) And least? legs
(66) Do you think you are good looking? no but i dont think im ugly either
(67) Are you confident? sometimes, sometimes not
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke? noo
(72) Do you do drugs? very rarely
(73) Read the newspaper? not usually
(75) Go to church? noope
(76) Talk to strangers? sometimes
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? no
(78) Take walks in the rain? yea i love that
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? yea
(80) Do you drive? yes
(81) Like to drive fast? sometimes
WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice? not really
(83) Hurt yourself? no
(84) Been out of the country? canadaa
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? yea
(86) Said something you didnt mean? im sure i have
(87) Couldnt find the words to say how you really felt? def
(88) Been in love? ha me? no.
(91) Had a medical emergency? nope
(92) Had a surgery? no
(93) Ran away from home? nope
(98) Been on stage? yea in like 4th grade
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? uhm.. no.
(100) Slept outdoors? yea
(101) Thought about suicide? no way
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? of course
(103) If yes, what is your record? i dunno between 24-48 hours id say
(104) Gone one day without food? not a whole 24 hours
(105) Talked on the phone all night? nope.. im not that into the phone to be honest
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yea
(107) Slept all day? yea
(108) Killed someone? yea prob not
(109) Made out with a stranger? nope
(110) Had sex with a stranger? no
(111) Thought you're going crazy? i probably am
(114) Been betrayed? i dont really think so
(115) Had a dream that came true? dont think so
(116) Broken the law? yea
(117) Met a famous person? yea
(118) Have you ever killed an animal on accident? noope
(121) On purpose? bugs?
(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? yea
(146) Stolen anything? yes
(147) Been on radio/tv? no
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? not exactly but i guess so
(152) Bungee jumped? nope.. i wanna though
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets? yea
(167) Miracles? sure
(168) Astrology? not in like predicting the future.. but with like character profiles and compatability yea
(169) Magic? no
(172) Santa? duh!
(174) Luck? yea
(175) Love at first sight? no way.. stupidest thing ever
(177) Witches? people think they are
(178) Easter bunny? aww
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yea why not?
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? thatd be pretty sick
(181) Do you wish on stars? im sure i have before
AMIGOS
(188) Who is your best friend? i wouldnt say i have just one
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? kasey&christine
(191) Your favorite inside joke? just one?.. i couldnt pick
(192) Thing you're picked on most about? my dumb comments
(193) Who's your longest known friend? chris
(194) Newest? caitlin maybe?
(195) Shyest? nick
(196) Funniest? sean gets a little nuts sometimes
(197) Sweetest? caitlins pretty nice
(198) Closest? kasey
(199) Weirdest? sean duh.
(200) Smartest? everyones pretty smart
(201) Ditziest? probably kasey
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? lindsay and phil.
(203) Last person you talked to online? chrissy.. were going to the beeach!
(204) Who do you talk to most online? usually phil but not lately
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? not really much of a phone person to be honest with you
(206) Who do you trust most? kasey
(207) Who listens to your problems? i tell kasey&christine pretty much everything
(208) Who do you fight most with? christine and i get into stupid fights over dumb things sometimes.. not real fights just like we get annoyed at each other lol
(209) Who's the nicest? well it used to be kasey.. but she turned into a bitch, so not anymore.. haha
(210) Who's the most outgoing? sean
(212) Who's on your shit-list? hmm theres a feww
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? yea
(215) Do you always feel understood? no
(216) Who's the loudest friend? prob lisa
(217) Do you trust others easily? id say so
(220) Do your friends know you? yea
OPPOSITE SEX
(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? no
(225) Do you consider love a mistake? i wouldnt know.. but id say no
(226) Height? taller than me
(227) Turn-on? awesome hair.. those freckly/beauty mark things i laav them..smelling good
(228) Turn-off? i guess the opposite of turn ons ? lol i dunno cant think right now
(229) Best hair/eye color? blonde/blue
(231) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? depends on who it was to be honest with you.. if it was some creepy asian man id be a little more than freaked out.. lol but id mostly feel flattered if it were anyone else
(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? def knowing them
(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? no
(236) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? probably not
(237) Best type of clothing style? doesnt really matter.. i guess like american eagle kinda shirts though if i hadda pick
(238) Weight? anywhere from skinny-average
(247) What's the last present someone gave you? i dunno
(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? look and smile? lol
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(279) That haunted you? uhh i really couldnt tell you
(280) You wanted to kill? ha ha ha
(281) That you laughed at? lisa "i got hit in the chest with an apple, that about sums up my night" lol
(282) That laughed at you? sean for spilling the soda on my foot lol
(284) You went shopping with? just went with lisa&alyssa today
(285) That broke your heart? maybe when someone said they hated me last night..
(288) To make you cry? eh lets not talk about that.
(289) To brighten up your day? my friends do that everyday
(290) That you thought about? fdgadfgda
(292) You talked to on the phone? dont really talk on the phone.. last person i talked to on it was kasey i think
(293) You talked to through IM/ICQ? kasey
(294) You saw? my cousin sean
RIGHT THIS MOMENT...
(340) What are you wearing right now? jeans& movielife tshirt
(341) Body-part you're touching right now? my lip
(342) What are you worried about right now? ughh
(344) What's on your mousepad? dell logo
(345) Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling? tired upset headachey .. thats about it
(346) Are you bored? not really
(347) Are you tired? yea
(348) Are you talking to anyone online? not at the moment
(349) Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no
(350) Are you lonely or content? lonely
(351) Are you listening to music? yes i always am
(352) Are you happy you're finally done? whatev
a few pics from the past week or so..
apparently this is the only pic i have from sams that night lol..
sup kandyce?
amy ash and cara
imma eat you!
peter cara caitlinshands jen
seannny
way to take a pic when were not looking
chrissy you probably didnt need a wetsuit in that bathwater =)
cara
cara&ash
im guessing i missed that shot? lol
schenoo
phil
sean
sam&cara
dont worry lisa well get em next time!haha
jay&sean
seans
cait hates pictures.. but dont worry i have ones of her waha!
cara what are you doing?
me&cara
lucia&jackie
cousin(luke)&me
me&sean(another cousin)
lisa&myself
we lavvv sloppy! lol
uhm? who took this?
yea lets not light the deck on fire boys
sammie&lala
kasey&christine
looking at fireworks..maybe?
chrissy&matt
the fries were good.
circle pong.. probably our new favorite game!
doot doot
sammmmie&caitlin
sakNstein
wow someones face is redd.. yea chris i pretty much killed you in circle pong lol your welcome seanny ;)