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so yah today im probably hanging out with Rachel and shell sleep over tonight but i want to do something tonight like go somewhere get out of my fuckin house!! i cant stop thinking about Mark at all lately and i dont know why.. im really scared to call and schedule my onroads bcoz knowing my luck ill have mine with him and i wont be able to go to them bcoz ill start to cry if i see him... i havent hung out iwth Val in a few days... yah... i hate the fact that i care so much about him and he doesnt like care... grrrr... its so frustrating... but yah anyway my day has sucked so far... but when my dad gets home from work were going to go and get my paint!! WOOP WOOP!! im painting my room GREEN with BLACK POLKA DOTS its going to be sooooo cute! :-) and im very excited!! my sweet 16 party is going to be on the 22 so if you want to come and you didnt get an invite then come anyway ;) itll be fun its at my house... yeah but im going to go and shower adn get ready to go well no where lol bye!! i would give anything to spend just one more day with him.. :'(