Sean hates me
So, Sean Puls has disappeared. He cancelled his Facebook account and he changed his phone number. I knew he was changing his phone because his broke but I didn't know he was changing his FB! I feel that he was doing it to get away from me. It wouldn't be the first time a guy has done that to me. Like John Fortner. Maybe I'm just over thinking it and he just didn't think that it would affect me at all. Maybe he thought about me in an after thought and has been meaning to let me know but has been too busy with life. Life gets in the way a lot. I don't know. I always think the worst which is always about me and it is usually just me being conceded and it's just something going on in their lives that has nothing to do with me. It sucks because I miss him and I always think about him. Last year when I seen him after 8 years it was like nothing changed. We still had this strong connection. He even told me. There's always been this connection between us. I have Andy and now he has Dawn but we still have this connection between us. I think that if somewhere in the future we were both single at the same time again, no matter when it was, like even 30 years down the road, we would be together. I feel that we will always have a connection and no matter where our lives take us we will always stay in touch. At least I hope... I really hope but I also kind of feel that, that is how it's going to be. I hate to think that since Andy and I should be forever but nothing lasts forever. I love Andy to death and we are going through so much right now. I just feel that Andy and I have a lot of problems that we aren't trying to fix (mostly within ourselves) that it is going to hurt us down the road and it just may cause tragedy. Ugh I hate thinking like that. Anyway I really wish that Sean and I will stay connected forever. He's the only person that I want to stay in my life (as far as old friends go) forever. <3 <3 <3