one sobbing/hyperventilation fit later
i have a headache now XD;;;….
between my sister ringing me up tonight just to tell me about how she's conflicted with choosing between two boys who are over the moon for her and then hanging up without showing any interest in me/my day, and earlier on in the evening-- the grocery delivery man hitting on me fucking after finding out the closest thing i had to a boyfriend passed away RECENTLY (i even USED the word 'boyfriend')….
and then, i came across a tumblr post that stated that humans are selfish mourners, because they only mourn because what the deceased once provided cannot be provided anymore. and i found out much the previous events affected me because then i broke down. i suppose i get to say for the first time, officially and literally, that i was 'triggered'? XDa
between my sister ringing me up tonight just to tell me about how she's conflicted with choosing between two boys who are over the moon for her and then hanging up without showing any interest in me/my day, and earlier on in the evening-- the grocery delivery man hitting on me fucking after finding out the closest thing i had to a boyfriend passed away RECENTLY (i even USED the word 'boyfriend')….
and then, i came across a tumblr post that stated that humans are selfish mourners, because they only mourn because what the deceased once provided cannot be provided anymore. and i found out much the previous events affected me because then i broke down. i suppose i get to say for the first time, officially and literally, that i was 'triggered'? XDa