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I feel like i could cry.
Last night, was way too intense for words. Sarah I'm sorry if i hurt you, but I just can't deal with such things.
Anyway, afterwards i was quite upset. all night. it's just hard to feel okay after getting into a fight with your best friend.
Well, Sarah i love you and i hope that you know that.
Sarah matos I love you as well, forever and ever.
Steph, i Love you too <3
Yesterday we had the world our way, but some say we're heading for destruction.-Mae.
Um, So I leave for florida on wednesday, and i haven't even began to start packing.
I think i'm trying to hold off because i want to get my life together first.
It sucks that right before i go on vacation my life falls apart. Honestly, I feel great, i've been doing so good on my meds. BUT NOW, since i have this god damn rash that won't go away, they want to take me off my meds, which means starting over. And I don't think i'm able to do that again. And it truly scares the shit out of me.
OH and i got a job. so holler at me. be proud. Not to mention, its the best job in the entire world cause i work w. my two best friends in the world. And it's easy.
Oh and i ended whatever it was that THAT boy wanted, when there are that many feelings involved, I would get hurt and it would be worse than it is now. On the other hand, i haven't talked to him and it hurts a lot. I thought maybe things would work out the way i wanted them to, but apparantly i was the only person who wanted such things. Don't you hate when your mom is right. "Kel, don't be upset if he hurts you, don't forget you broke his heart first." "Yeah, yeah, okay MOM." Well i guess that's what i get. For being a bitch. And hurting him first. But that's not me anymore. I've changed so much and he doesn't care to see it.
But i think that was the best decision i've made in a long time. Usually, i'll let boys walk all over me, but this time it was different, way too many feelings involved. But i haven't felt this kind of hurt in awhile. I feel like i need him in my life.
So anyway, i really am honestly excited for vacation, I need a vacation from all of this.
Last night, was way too intense for words. Sarah I'm sorry if i hurt you, but I just can't deal with such things.
Anyway, afterwards i was quite upset. all night. it's just hard to feel okay after getting into a fight with your best friend.
Well, Sarah i love you and i hope that you know that.
Sarah matos I love you as well, forever and ever.
Steph, i Love you too <3
Yesterday we had the world our way, but some say we're heading for destruction.-Mae.
Um, So I leave for florida on wednesday, and i haven't even began to start packing.
I think i'm trying to hold off because i want to get my life together first.
It sucks that right before i go on vacation my life falls apart. Honestly, I feel great, i've been doing so good on my meds. BUT NOW, since i have this god damn rash that won't go away, they want to take me off my meds, which means starting over. And I don't think i'm able to do that again. And it truly scares the shit out of me.
OH and i got a job. so holler at me. be proud. Not to mention, its the best job in the entire world cause i work w. my two best friends in the world. And it's easy.
Oh and i ended whatever it was that THAT boy wanted, when there are that many feelings involved, I would get hurt and it would be worse than it is now. On the other hand, i haven't talked to him and it hurts a lot. I thought maybe things would work out the way i wanted them to, but apparantly i was the only person who wanted such things. Don't you hate when your mom is right. "Kel, don't be upset if he hurts you, don't forget you broke his heart first." "Yeah, yeah, okay MOM." Well i guess that's what i get. For being a bitch. And hurting him first. But that's not me anymore. I've changed so much and he doesn't care to see it.
But i think that was the best decision i've made in a long time. Usually, i'll let boys walk all over me, but this time it was different, way too many feelings involved. But i haven't felt this kind of hurt in awhile. I feel like i need him in my life.
So anyway, i really am honestly excited for vacation, I need a vacation from all of this.