You were everything that I wanted~

[x_unbelieved_x]

I am sick to my stomache because of you...Dont get a wink of sleep.... Throw up all night... It hurts just to think of not having you anymore... I hate you but I love you, I need you but I dont, I want you to be the person that I met not so long ago. Just be the person that I fell in love with, the one that could make me laugh, make me happy by the sound of your voice, make me smile by just the presence that you have. You were everything that I wanted until you showed your "true" colors. I was blinded by the things I loved about you, but just eight simple words showed me what you wanted "maybe I just want to be left alone" it showed me everything that I never wanted to see. I know it was an agreement between the both of us but I despise you for leading me on for so long. If you had issues to deal with you could've told me and I would've taken the hint but no. you would go days without calling sometimes a week and make me go crazy because I didnt know what you wanted. You told me before that you could tell me anything but it just seemed that you didnt want to anymore...I didnt know how you felt or how you still feel, your so quiet now its weird but I need to know just for my own closure. Like I said you can always call me and I will always be there for you. As a friend or a companion but dont leave me out in this dead world without anything to fill this gap in heart...leading down to my stomache and making me sick. I would give you the world if I could, fix all your problems if I could and love you forever...If I could.

<3 bethany**