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So i woke up this morning knowing today might be the day i loose her, i was ready for that in a way, so dad came home to change and check everyone, and if i had just been able to hear one certain person i woulda been able to cope so much better, so we get there, shes sleeping, she apologised for not being dead yet and for everyone waiting still, i think she was just so fed up and wanted to go, she wanted to be with her husband and daughter and other family memebers, so she stated to the nurse she wanted no more treatment and to let nature take its course, so my aunt and sheree sed they would go home and change so the left 3 hours later her heart rated and breathing dropped, dad got scared as did i so we called n said to come back soon as possible, so they did, and nan settled we waited another 5 hours so auntie lynne sed u know u guys looks like wel b here a while we all agreed so she went to get sum stuff, then the nurse and assitant came and said we need to turn her so she doesnt get sores so we waited outisde, lynne came back, we all went back in and then it happened final stages she was in we had about 20 mins max with her, i wanted to cry but i wanted to b strong i wanted to come home and talk to 2 certain people cause it always feels like everything will be ok when i talk to them, i wanted to shout i didnt know what i wanted to do, i just sat there numb and watched her slip away .... and there and then at about 4.55pm on january the 4th she died, i dont know what to say or do at the moment im numb