Damb feelings
You know just when you're starting think everything is getting back on track and you almsot have a house and your family almost gets along and youve gone to the last funeral you'll have ot go to this year .....its not. My mo keeps procrasting buying a huse and we have ot be out of mine in july and when she finally put an offer in a hosue shes been looking at for 2 months she didnt get it. You owudl alsot think that my parents nto living ot gether would help them get along since they dont have to speak to each other much but aparently distance no obsticle for my parents. I went ot a funerla a week and a half ago for my uncle mom it was sad but she had cancer so atleast she didn''t have to suffer any more. Tomorro I have to go to a double wake then fineral on thrusday for my god fathers parents. THey werent related ot me by blood but they still felt like family. They died a day apart whihc was a crazy coincidance but i guess its nice that they are together agian. Im hopign a fight doesnt break out tomorrow nifht since my godfather and his brother hate each other , they got into a fight at the hospital and his brother got him kicked out so this shall be interesitng. And..for the icing on the cake somone i care about very much who i condiser my uncle has cancer. I mean what is the next bad news to come?...someone please give me soem good news.I knwo its sumer and I shoudl feel realxed and worry free I have been feelign reall overwhelmed by all of this its never ending. I always handle things pretty well or at least I look like I do but today I am not.
I thought I was over everything I thought I moved on from past realtionships. I thought I was over you but yesterday all those old feeligns just crept up on me. It was like a huge sneak attack , I thought that I was over you 6 months ago but yesterday those feeligns were there and they were real. There is just something bout you....its gets me every time. Feelings suck they sneak up on you and they dont stop when you want them to, I wish we could control them. A year ago when I first knew i liked you I tried to deny it but it all came out in a drunken speech, I hope I don't do that again..that would be quite th aukawrd deja vu.
I know all of this may not mean anythig to anyone else and my seem trivial but I needed to get it out of my system becasue I cant sleep right now.
goodnight
I thought I was over everything I thought I moved on from past realtionships. I thought I was over you but yesterday all those old feeligns just crept up on me. It was like a huge sneak attack , I thought that I was over you 6 months ago but yesterday those feeligns were there and they were real. There is just something bout you....its gets me every time. Feelings suck they sneak up on you and they dont stop when you want them to, I wish we could control them. A year ago when I first knew i liked you I tried to deny it but it all came out in a drunken speech, I hope I don't do that again..that would be quite th aukawrd deja vu.
I know all of this may not mean anythig to anyone else and my seem trivial but I needed to get it out of my system becasue I cant sleep right now.
goodnight