It really sucks when you are seriously considering leaving the man you fought so hard to get back...

I don't know what to do.

Things were going so well and then in a matter of minutes my whole perspective changed. I know I don't want to leave him, I love him more than anything but it might be for the best that I do.

Quick update....
I'm basically living back with Michael which is why I have not been online for awhile... But I do have a computer now so once we get into a new house which will hopefully be in about a month, probably two I will get it all connected.
I applied for a few temp jobs today, hopefully I get a few callbacks about that because we ( Read more... )

I have some news ( Read more... )

Tomorrow afternoon I am having a small family BBQ for my birthday (because I won't be on the coast on my birthday) & then Michael is coming up after work & staying here the night & we will be having a few drinks with my brother & dad ( Read more... )

So I have discovered that putting every cd I own onto my computer to put them on my brand new video iPod takes FOREVERThankfully I have 2 computers to help the process along ( Read more... )

I wasn't going to update about this because I really don't want to think about it anymore but I figured what the hell, I need to write it down somewhere so I don't let myself forget about it ( Read more... )

So the latest on Michael and the whore.. He says their not together but they are still spending time together and apparently he can't afford to get rid of her because he is basically living off her. She pays for all of his food, alcohol and other stuff. She even handed him $200 yesterday because she knew he was broke ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, I may punch Michael in the face..

I am exhausted... Does anyone know how to turn your brain off from thinking too much ( Read more... )

When I have been gone for so long I actually never know what to write because I can guarantee about 1005 things happened that if I was at home I would have written them on here straight away but now that I look back on it, I couldn't be fucked or I can't remember ( Read more... )