hello my old friend <3
I have been neglecting you.
Anyways so I am currently doing a course called "Attacking Anxiety and Depression." I'm pretty sure the title tells you enough. Yes well apparently I have learned to hate myself. I am my own worst critic. I don't know I have retarded panic attacks at the most random times. It's a bit better this week at least. The last month has been hell to sum it up. I am a mess right now inside. Of course I keep my composure perfectly cool at work. So much shit has happened and I have lost all confidence in myself. Or the little I had started to build up. I stress about the stupidest things, get angry about the smallest things. I don't trust anyone. I trust myself even less. I can't stand looking at myself, it makes me want to rip my hair out. I am obsessed with every flaw I have. And boy do I have many. At least i'm not crying 5 times a day anymore. For now. I never know what will set me off. There is so much more I could type but I really just don't feel like it.
Anyways so I am currently doing a course called "Attacking Anxiety and Depression." I'm pretty sure the title tells you enough. Yes well apparently I have learned to hate myself. I am my own worst critic. I don't know I have retarded panic attacks at the most random times. It's a bit better this week at least. The last month has been hell to sum it up. I am a mess right now inside. Of course I keep my composure perfectly cool at work. So much shit has happened and I have lost all confidence in myself. Or the little I had started to build up. I stress about the stupidest things, get angry about the smallest things. I don't trust anyone. I trust myself even less. I can't stand looking at myself, it makes me want to rip my hair out. I am obsessed with every flaw I have. And boy do I have many. At least i'm not crying 5 times a day anymore. For now. I never know what will set me off. There is so much more I could type but I really just don't feel like it.