letter i wrote
It's amazing how much somebody can break your heart and still you love them with every broken piece of it."...
I don't feel like I can talk to you so...I guess that's why I'm writing you this.
I'm desperate and I don't know what else to do. I love you and I always will. I wish I didn't
Things would be so much easier that way. I can't be with you anymore. I'm sorry but it's killing
me inside everyday. It hurts so much. To know that I'm not worth it to you any more. TO see
that you have no problem lying to my face. When I look into your eyes now, I see a complete
stranger. I don't know what I did to make you fall out of love with me so fast. I guess because
of what happened with your mom. I don't think I did anythign wrong but I guess maybe you do and
maybe you hate me because your relationship with her is strained now. It will go back to how
it used to be soon enough because I will be out of your life forever. It makes me so sad when
I think about when we first started talking, the first day we met. I fell in love with you
almost right away. You were sweet and honest, genuine and you seemed to really care about
people in your life. I guess we were just not meant to be. I will always cherish the first
couple months. You made me so happy and you filled me with hope. And though I say otherwise,
I wouldn't trade that for anything. You've helped me learn a lesson. I need to stop being
so naive and stupid. I need to learn to trust my instinct and intuition. I hope you can understand
why I can not be with you anymore. You betrayed my trust and you took my heart and shattered it.
I can't live this way. It hurts to look at you and hear the way you talk to me because it's
like you're so full of resentment and hatred. Even though you've hurt me in so many ways, you
always just ger angry with me like it's my FAULT. That is not love. I know that I don't
make you happy anymore. I think you deserve t be with someone who can make you happy and put that
sparkle back in your eye like I used to do. It kills me that I can't do that anymore. I know
that I've gotten really unattractive lately. I guess I was hoping you could love me anyways but
I realize that that's not going to happen. I'm sorry that I changed. I don;t blame you for
not wanting to be around me. I don't blame you for looking at porn. I know that I don't
"satisfy" your needs enough. Therefore you find other ways. I only got angry because I felt
hurt that I can no longer be enough for you. And that you lied to me about it. But I guess that comes with you falling out of love
with me. I don't know how things got to be so bad but I know that I can't go on like this.
WE used to talk about getting married and having kids. Now look at us. WE are a disaster.
I broken because I lost my bestfriend. I lost my "chubby". That's always going to haunt me
throughout my life. lost my boyfriend, I lost you. WE lost "us." Somewhere it all changed. Somewhere we lost our
connection. I just know that the person I fell in love with, and the person I like to believe did love me at one point,
would never dont the things you did to me. He would never have made me hurt this way. He was my angel. He was everything
the opposite of what I feel with you. I felt happy and safe and loved with him. I felt like I could tell him anything.
Now he is gone from my life but he will always be burning in my heart. I won;t forget him, i won't forget that short
time that we got to experience what we did. I am sorry if I have messed up your future in any way. That wasn't my intention.
I am full of a lot of anger and resentment towards you right now. It's really hard for me because it hurts so fucking bad.
But I am not sorry that I met you. No matter what I say when I am angry. WE got those couple of months to see magic, to know
love at it's best. I am so scared because I don't think that anyone will ever love me the way that you did but I can't just
stay with you because of that. I guess we just need to realize that we can't go back in time. WE can't change back to who
we used to be. I wish things could have turned out differently. I really wish that we could have gone on to build a family together.
We could have been GREAT. That's the saddest part. Circumstances changed us. WE can't dwell on the past now. I wish you luck
in all that you do in the future. I know you will succeed. I hope you find happiness and peace. I will never forget you and
the time we shared together. Thank you for that.
-Michelle
I don't feel like I can talk to you so...I guess that's why I'm writing you this.
I'm desperate and I don't know what else to do. I love you and I always will. I wish I didn't
Things would be so much easier that way. I can't be with you anymore. I'm sorry but it's killing
me inside everyday. It hurts so much. To know that I'm not worth it to you any more. TO see
that you have no problem lying to my face. When I look into your eyes now, I see a complete
stranger. I don't know what I did to make you fall out of love with me so fast. I guess because
of what happened with your mom. I don't think I did anythign wrong but I guess maybe you do and
maybe you hate me because your relationship with her is strained now. It will go back to how
it used to be soon enough because I will be out of your life forever. It makes me so sad when
I think about when we first started talking, the first day we met. I fell in love with you
almost right away. You were sweet and honest, genuine and you seemed to really care about
people in your life. I guess we were just not meant to be. I will always cherish the first
couple months. You made me so happy and you filled me with hope. And though I say otherwise,
I wouldn't trade that for anything. You've helped me learn a lesson. I need to stop being
so naive and stupid. I need to learn to trust my instinct and intuition. I hope you can understand
why I can not be with you anymore. You betrayed my trust and you took my heart and shattered it.
I can't live this way. It hurts to look at you and hear the way you talk to me because it's
like you're so full of resentment and hatred. Even though you've hurt me in so many ways, you
always just ger angry with me like it's my FAULT. That is not love. I know that I don't
make you happy anymore. I think you deserve t be with someone who can make you happy and put that
sparkle back in your eye like I used to do. It kills me that I can't do that anymore. I know
that I've gotten really unattractive lately. I guess I was hoping you could love me anyways but
I realize that that's not going to happen. I'm sorry that I changed. I don;t blame you for
not wanting to be around me. I don't blame you for looking at porn. I know that I don't
"satisfy" your needs enough. Therefore you find other ways. I only got angry because I felt
hurt that I can no longer be enough for you. And that you lied to me about it. But I guess that comes with you falling out of love
with me. I don't know how things got to be so bad but I know that I can't go on like this.
WE used to talk about getting married and having kids. Now look at us. WE are a disaster.
I broken because I lost my bestfriend. I lost my "chubby". That's always going to haunt me
throughout my life. lost my boyfriend, I lost you. WE lost "us." Somewhere it all changed. Somewhere we lost our
connection. I just know that the person I fell in love with, and the person I like to believe did love me at one point,
would never dont the things you did to me. He would never have made me hurt this way. He was my angel. He was everything
the opposite of what I feel with you. I felt happy and safe and loved with him. I felt like I could tell him anything.
Now he is gone from my life but he will always be burning in my heart. I won;t forget him, i won't forget that short
time that we got to experience what we did. I am sorry if I have messed up your future in any way. That wasn't my intention.
I am full of a lot of anger and resentment towards you right now. It's really hard for me because it hurts so fucking bad.
But I am not sorry that I met you. No matter what I say when I am angry. WE got those couple of months to see magic, to know
love at it's best. I am so scared because I don't think that anyone will ever love me the way that you did but I can't just
stay with you because of that. I guess we just need to realize that we can't go back in time. WE can't change back to who
we used to be. I wish things could have turned out differently. I really wish that we could have gone on to build a family together.
We could have been GREAT. That's the saddest part. Circumstances changed us. WE can't dwell on the past now. I wish you luck
in all that you do in the future. I know you will succeed. I hope you find happiness and peace. I will never forget you and
the time we shared together. Thank you for that.
-Michelle